Always And Forever

My Beginning

They say life is one of the most beautiful gifts that has been given by God. And those who decides to suicide are sinners. Because it's a murder and only God can choose when it's your time to go.
"Anything that kills hope is a sin "
I am still too young that's what I always keep telling myself ,and maybe I am wrong about that because every time something happens I keep blaming life for it

I am a simple person ,I am not expecting anything from anyone and most of all from life. I've got only few people in my life who means the world to me and honestly I don't need anyone else expect them

I've been staring at myself for about ten minutes . I was thinking ,that's what I usually do. I could hear my brother Mike knocking on the door angrily asking me to get out .
"Anni open the door !!"he kept bawling
I knew the second i'd open the door, he'd rush in like a dog after his meat .
He had to understand that I am a girl and I need to have my privacy, especially that is not just a normal day. It's the first day of my last year in high school. I picked up my clothes months ago and so did my best friend Lucy . We spent the whole summer together ,we are basically like sisters .
I called her as soon as i dressed up in my sleeveless blue knee height dress that had a closed conservative neckline with a thin black belt and with black leather heels
When she answered we both started screaming .She knew me better than anyone even better than myself .
My mother came in the room to check up on me since she knew how important this day was. She asked me to stop shouting like a maniac and then kindly told me to make my bed and go downstairs to eat. I told Lucy to come in fifteen minutes over and then we hang up..
Maybe that's why In my worst moments I don't burst out crying, it's because Lucy is always there to make things better ,in a way that makes me laugh so badly that my cheeks starts hurting .I could never imagine a life without her and I hope nobody ever experience losing a best friend.
When Lucy arrived and I was done with the breakfast we took off in my red mini cooper ,I've had this car since last year when my father got it for me as a gift ,it was one of the newest cars in the town.
We entered the school in slow motion the way every senior gets to walk in their last year ,I guess we have the right to do that.
My locker and Lucy's are miles apart but it doesn't bother us that much so we just skip it
"Go ahead I'll catch up with you later "I tell Lucy
"Where are you heading to ?"she asked ,winking at me
Her curiosity was something I loved about her ,I've took that from her as well
"I am going bathroom to check my make up "I tell her fast so that she calms down and doesn't start making a scene in the middle of the hallway
As I was about to get out of the bathroom ,someone angrily pushed me out of his way ,but stopped as I felt down on the ground like a five year old kid
"You alright?"an Australian accent surpass me as he picked me up from the floor.
"Yes , I am okay "I shrugged , I didn't have the time to look at his face since my hair got messed up and all over the face .
He left in a blink of an eye because the next five seconds after I managed to see again ,he was already gone ...

I run to the class and told Lucy what happened
"Are you serious " she asked surprised
"Yes I wish I had the chance to look at his face , his accent literally melted me "I said looking all in love
"Who knows ,maybe a true love ?"she said giving me her smile
"Don't even think of that "I said trying to look serious but it turned into a hopeless smile
"Do you think he is a senior or a collage guy passing by to pee at a bathroom ?"she said joking around
"I'd like to find out "I said confidently
I am not much of a confident person and I didn't knew where it all came from but who knows maybe life was with me for the first time "
By the end of the classes I lost all my confidence and hope

The next morning , I dressed up in blue jeans and an orange t-shirt , I was making spins around the mirror when Mike came in.
"Anni?"ask Mike while giving me a puppy face
"Yes Mike "
"My friends are coming over tonight ,can I barrow some of your PS3 cd's please?"he implores
"Sure ,I guess I'll be at Lucy's tonight so you can have them "I said gesturing to the cd's
After he gets out with my CDs , I am thinking about how my mother and father are so proud of him ,for staying out of troubles, people at his age parties all day and gets wasted every single week , he is a different type of person maybe that's what makes him more special than the rest of us ..

So here we are in the canteen sitting with the classmates.We were having so much fun until I heard the accent again. I turned as fast as I could but I couldn't see his face because he left in a crowded place . I got up and took Lucy with me so that we follow him
"Excuse me " Lucy says out loud
"Yes " replied the stranger
In that moment I knew it wasn't him , it wasn't his accent
I stood there in silence , disappointed of myself because I lost him once again .Lucy told him about the guy I've been searching since yesterday ,but he didn't seem to know anyone with an Australian accent
"By the way, I am Zack "he shook hands with me and Lucy .For a moment it looked like he didn't want to let go of Lucy's hand..maybe it was just me
"I am Lucy and this is my best friend Anni "she replies
Lucy and Zack stood at a table , and I left them so they could chat more privately. Because for all I know is that Lucy deserves someone amazing ,with her blond and blue eyes she could make anyone turn their heads after her but she is just not that type.She taught me to always be good to people because it's a wonderful legacy to leave behind and I think she is right , after all we are all humans and we can never know what others are dealing with ,in their lives .

I went to my history class with Alexia , one of my classmates she offered herself to walk me to the class since Lucy bailed on me , to be honest I didn't mind it she'd have done the same to me ..
While we were opening our books ,Mr Jone the director of the school came presenting a new student .He was tall and handsome, his green eyes were sparkling from the light , his light brown hair matched his skin perfectly .. He seemed unreal for a moment and I think I felt in love with him since the moment he entered through that door. He had muscles ,they could be observed from under his shirt.
The director mentioned that his name was "William Shem " and that he was coming from a small town
He also went on and on about his rules if someone fights inside the school and how they'd be expelled or punished .When he finally finished his speech , Mr Raj the math teacher interfered and loudly asked
"Anni is there a place beside you ?"
"Yes sir " I said quietly , feeling embarrassed because the whole class was staring at me
William walks toward me and gives me a warm smile before sitting down
When the classes were finally over I checked my phone and I found a message from Lucy asking me to come over to her right away .
When I got there she started telling me about Zack and then I noticed there was something she didn't want to tell me
"What is it " I narrow my eyes at her and sniffed like I was trying to smell something on her
"Well we've been invited to a party by Zack ,and I kind of said we are going "she says like its a relief
"You did what ?" I yelled
"Please Anni , it means lot for me "she looked so excited when she said that
And so I gave up the arguing and agreed on that .
The next day when I got inside the class with Lucy , I saw William sitting so peacefully handsome ,his warm smile made my day and so I sat next to him in the math class .I felt someone staring at me , I already knew it was Will but it made me feel weird and so I decided to ask him what is it
He cut a small paper out from his copybook and wrote "I am staring at something beautiful "
That was not what I expected ,i couldn't stop smiling when he took the small paper again and wrote "I'd like to know you better "
And so I knew that could be the start of something beautiful ..i wrote back on the paper "AND I YOU"