I've been so like exhausted recently it's crazyyy like blawg nightmares and stuff 😭😭 I can make this into like a dream book or smth??? Just noting down some stuff or dreams I've had. I'll do the one I had like 2 nights ago here
I was like going to a house party with a friend for some reason??? Anyway I was at the party for some time, then it seemed like she left tp another room and I walked to a room and sat down on the couch in that room and checked my phone (where I got a message from my friend talking about a mask he made for some reason). After some time, I walked outside, then back inside, and found out there were only 3 people left inside. The friend and 2 guys. The friend (just calling her that because I have no idea who she is. She was one of my irl friends the first time I got this nightmare but now I didn't know who she was) had been uhhhh alone with those two guys and like I felt so guilty for not protecting her. We quickly left and saw 2 people outside, then I realised I had left my shoes so I quickly got them back on. We then took a bike and hurried away as fast as we could. We tried visiting different places to try finding safe places, but we kept seeing stuff like the 2 boys. Then we just went to a fish store and for some reason FUCKING JACKSEPTICEYE WENT "TOP OF THE MORNING TO YA" when we walked past and we entered the store. We accidentally broke something and the owner was like "Oh no worries, that was just an extra security measure because of some troubled kids that have been harassing the people in town" or something like that and I hugged the friend and I woke up
So yeah, that was my dream!! Second or third time, I've had it, actually.
I've also been listening to a lot of music and stuff, and I began at the new school back in 2022 and I got into a special eds class in January 2023. It was nice to finally get into a special eds class because, like, I REALLY needed it. My grades in maths and science went from a 2 to a 4!! I couldn't focus like at ALL because I was constantly overwhelmed by the people and the sounds around me, so I couldn't focus on work, and I wasn't allowed to have headphones. I'm doing so much better mentally now, to be honest! At least compared to 2021-2023. I've started going to a psychologist as well, so that's sweet. (I've been going to and from different offices and cities because of stuff like evaluations and checks with stuff like psychosis.) I'm really glad I'm finally gonna get to go to the psychologist. To have someone to talk to was something I have needed ever since I changed from a tiny school to a huge one where I didn't know anyone except like two people I went to gymnastics with. I've changed schools like twice, I've been bullied at 2 of the schools, and it's been a struggle to keep on my feet, but here I am! Alive!! :3
Anyway I'll end this here because liiiiike I'm in class and I'm getting bored of writing.
Toodles! Love from Ethel~ ♡
