Taylor is just your average girl with an average life before she meets Harry, the world famous singer from one direction. Little does Taylor know that meeting Harry will change her life completely, for better, and for worse.
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Im still standing in the doorway. I feel stuck, like time just stopped. She didn't even let me prove my point. I finally walk away. I need a drink. My head is filled with thoughts, overanalysing her every move before she left.
I don't quite get why she was so upset. i never meant to hurt her. I picture her flaming eyes piercing my soul. I must have really screwed up this time. I get a glass of whiskey and sit down at the piano.
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Im unable to play for a solid 5 minutes. And when I first do, everything sounds so sad. The music spreads through the empty house. I sit like this for a long time. (Reference: falling by Harry styles)
I try to view the situation from her perspective. And I can understand that I haven't really had time for her, but that's because of my job. She knows that. And about Lexie... I already told Taylor how insignificant it was.
I guess all I can do is wait. Wait for her to realise that this shouldn't impact our relationship at all. The sun is setting and I feel like im drowning in this unfamiliar emptiness. And so I drown my sorrows with alcohol, like I always do. eventually I go to bed, trying to get some rest.
A couple days later
I've been waiting and waiting for multiple days at this point. I don't think she's not coming back, not yet at least. It's raining again. It's as if Taylor took all the sunshine with her, and refuse to shine it on me.
I eventually get up and make myself some breakfast, I have barely eaten since she left. And I can still not wrap my thoughts around why she left; all I know is that I miss her insanely.
I'm pretty sure she's at Maya's, so I've made up my mind, that I'll go to her today. I'll be as vulnerable as I possibly can, and hopefully she will come back to me. Give me another chance.
Taylor's perspective
Its been four days since I left. I thought it would be freeing, but i miss him so bad right now. But in the end I couldn't bear it, to be honest. Im sitting by the window at Maya's taking in the rain.
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I don't know what he was thinking when calling me too young, right after cheating on me with an older woman. It made me feel so small, so powerless. As if im just something he wanted to try out. an experiment.
I know he used to have a reputation about not being able to date one girl at a time, but I guess I was just blinded by love. It all felt so raw, so imperfectly perfect. In the end maybe it was all a bluff, and what if there were other girls? Other girls like that bleached blonde at the club. It feels like someone squeezes my heart at the thought. It physically hurts.
"Taylor?" Mark, My sister's husband breaks me from my thoughts. I look up to him, listening. "How are you feeling?" he continues. I hesitate for a second before letting him in to my thoughts.
"I don't know, I guess I just feel really let down. Like really backstabbed. He's my first true love, you know that right?". I start to stumble over my words. "And ever since the night he came home; I guess I've just painted him out to be the bad guy. Like right up to this moment." And with that I break, once again.
"But I don't know, I think I'm just starting to realise that maybe I'm in the wrong? Judging by his reactions I'm just overreacting, what if he's right?" I say tears running down my face. Mark's eyes are deeply concentrated in mine. "im starting to realise how unfair ive been. God, I didn't even let him explain himself!" I sob. "do you think im the bad guy in this...?" I suddenly ask, surprised I said that out loud.
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Mark releases a sigh. "Taylor, I don't think you're the bad guy. I don't think he is neither. Surely, you've both taken poor decisions, some worse than others. actions neither of you might be able to take back. But I don't think that makes either of you a villain." He pauses for a second, placing his hand on my shoulder.
"I think you both might have been overwhelmed by your feelings for one and other, both handling them differently. This combining with how lonely I know you felt without his presence and how exhausted I know he has been, probably made you both a bit toxic for each other. Simply bad combinations and timing for your different needs in the relationship."
His words comfort me, and I feel appreciation warming my heart. Im so glad my sister found this wonderful man for herself, and im so glad my niece gets to have him as his father. "Thank you mark. I really needed that." I smile, tasting the salt tears falling into my mouth. Mark gives me a warm hug before telling me Maya has prepared a bath for me. I nod and head to the bathroom.
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