If You Only Knew

                     

January 24th, 2019  

Jennifer Stone                                                                

      I walked down the street as the cold winter air pierced my ears and uncovered face. I remember when everyone walked home from school, I remember when there were more then 3 kids on the same block, I remember when more then 150 kids went to our school. They all either moved away, died, or their parents died and they were taken somewhere else. I really don’t understand why I’m still here. My dad died around Christmas, and my mom’s still here, but she’s depressed and can’t coop with her pain. Sometimes I worry about my mom. I’m only 13, and I can’t be my moms’ mom.

February 5th, 2019

          I’m gonna go on vacation for almost a month. My mom says that we need to get some away time, away time from the terrible world we live in. I don’t care what she says anymore, the only thing that keeps me alive is the few friends I have that are still left. In the last week at least 30, maybe 40, kids have left my school. Only two of my friends have died, but they were kinda distant to me, we weren’t that close. My four closest friends are still alive, and I’m glad to. My mom thinks taking me away from my school and all the drama will be good for me. She has been trying to get us into a none infected area, but we probably won’t get in because we live in an infected area. I understand her pain, but she doesn’t understand mine and what heals the pain. I’m going for her, because I know that I’m all she has left.

February 12th, 2019

           We left today, really early in the morning. We were driving to a secluded area on the coast of Florida. Well I talked to my mom and she allowed me to bring my friend Elaina. We’ve been driving for about three hours, and it made me think, I held back the tears. I looked over at my mom, she was holding them in like she has for the past month. I wanted to slap her and scream, “cry already”, but I didn’t have the heart to. I swear she heard my thoughts because one tear slowly dripped down her warn out cheeks. I remember when her cheeks were covered with blush. She was pretty once, now she has nothing to be pretty for, nothing.  

February 13th, 2019

            Just woke up, it’s about 6:00 a.m. no one else is awake but me. I guess I should tell you what’s going on in the world today just in case this is the only record we will have later. Well a few years back, in 2013, a new bug was discovered. The bug had been living among us since prehistoric times, but it was just hiding deep in the Amazon rainforest. It had a real reason to hide; the bug carried a completely devastating disease. Luckily the bug was found before it could infect anyone, or so we thought. So scientists tried their hardest to stop the bugs but it was hard. They could easily adapt to any place with any type of warm weather. I’d hate to say it but, I think my dad was the reason that our town got infected. Well my dad was a tree logger, and last summer he was scheduled to fly to the Amazon rainforest to cut some trees down. First the bugs took over the trees, then the loggers. Eventually my dad came home, not suspecting any harm, and brought the disease with him. And soon the bug took over my dads’ immune system, and soon completely consumed his chance of fighting any disease. He died three days before Christmas.

February 17th, 2019

             At least it’s warm here. My mom seems to have been happy lately, and frankly this is the first time in the past couple months I’ve actually been happy. I hope my mom feels the same way.

April 1st, 2019

            Sorry I lost my book for a little bit. I hate my mom, I hate her with all my heart. She should just go home. I hate her, I hate her so much.

May 1st, 2019

            My mom found my notebook and read it. I felt terrible coming back home to her all depressed. She made me angry, what does she want from me? I’m a 13 year old girl she expects to be happy all the time. You don’t understand she was ready to move here, she even offered to let Elaina stay here. But I think I blew I blew my chances with that. I’m sorry I gotta go talk to my mom, maybe I’ll make her change her mind. She’s to unhappy at our old house.

May 4th, 2019

            We are heading home to first collect our stuff, and then head to Elaina’s’ to get her stuff. I’m really happy she’s coming. I need to take a nap I’m awake but too tired to keep my eyes open. Maybe when I wake up I’ll have something to write about.

May 6th, 2019

            I just got back to our new house in Florida. Well I’ve been staying here for the past month so it’s not weird to stay here again. I’ve been talking to Elaina and she said her parents are leaving to come to Florida too. Lately everyone’s moving to somewhere uninfected. My areas uninfected but only 3 houses in the area are empty. I know it sure won’t stay like that for long though.

May 8th, 2019

            I’m in the hospital now, I wish I would have just died.