To the moon and back

chapter 6

Samanvi' s pov

Today I am going to tell rishi about my feelings. Before that I am going to sowmya akka's house for some pooja. After the pooja I am going to the cafe to meet rishi. I am so excited to tell him about my decision. He will also feel happy.  I want to see his  happiness. I got ready and went to sowmya akka's house. I meet akka and jiju his family. Rishi's parents are also there. I was sitting with my cousins. Pooja was going on but I was thinking only about rishi. Before mahamangala arati hamsa also join us all for pooja. After the pooja we all had our launch. I tried to speak with hamsa but she was not speaking with me. Something is fishy. She never behaves like this and she also looks worried.
All elders were talking. Doddamma asked rishi's mother about his engagement date.
"Ramya when is rishi's engagement"
Whattt rishi's engagement. May be I heard it wrong. Only his name is audible to me. Surely I am head over heels for him. But to my surprise his mother replied "it is on  sunday, please all of u attend the function and bless both rishi and prajna"
What rishi is going to marry his cousin prajana. I turned my head towards hamsa. She was looking the floor. Then I understand why she was like that. Suddenly I felt my head was blasting. He betrayed me. But why what did I do to him. He is the one who confessed me. Why did he do this to me. I am feeling weak my legs are not supporting me. My eyes are holding tears but I can't let them out not at least in front of everyone. I have to leave for the pg. After bidding bye to sownya akka and karthik jiju I reached my pg. I cried lot. Why did he do this to me. If I am not suitable for him then why did he told me I love u, why did he do all this with me. Till night 8 i cried. After that I got up from the bed and freshen up and open my books to study. I won't waste my time on a guy like rishi. I have my responsibility and dreams. While thinking all this my phone ringed. Hamsa is calling me. But why is this not enough wht her do with me. After rishi's confession we both became close and she even calls me aathige. I received the call.
"Hello aathige" She asked (athige means sister in law)
"Hello hamsa"    "How r u aathige"  Everytime she calls me aathige reminds me rishi so I will clear her  not  to call me with that.
"Haa I am good and don't call me aathige from now onwards. U know well I am telling this"
"But I can't imagine any other girl in ur place"
"But that is and  that was never  my  place" I told to her my voice was cracking
" Noo ur only one girl in the rishi anna's hear forever due to some family confusion he is marrying prajana"
"Wow great he loves me but marrying her for his family. He betrays me and now preparing for betray her. U know what today I was going to say to him yess but thank god I didn't." After this tears rolling up over my cheeks.
"Saanu akka please don't stress yourself and don't cry. Everything will get better with time. Do well with ur exams only 3 months is left. I am really sorry from my brother side. I know he is wrong but he had his reasons. I am not supporting him. From today onwards I will not speak about him. Please don't ignore me. U can call me at any time. I know u need someone now. I am really sorry for everything" She told me his words are filled with concern but she is supporting her brother. But it's fine he is her brother.
"Hey why r u saying sorry and I will not ignore. Thanks for ur concerns I will definitely call u if I need someone regarding this. Yeahh it's better if we don't talk about that cheater brother of your. Okay bye now I have to read from morning I didn't read anything."
"Okay bye take care"
I cut the call and read for some time and slept.

After that incident I didn't called him nor he called me. But I want to ask him some questions. I need answers. Then only my mind will clear. Tomorrow is his engagement.  Before that I have to meet.

Hii rishi, I know u don't want to talk to me. But I want to talk to u. Plss dont deny my request. I will be waiting for u in illusion cafe. Plss come.(s)
Okay(r)
After texting him I got ready and went to the cafe. He was already waiting for me.

"Hii rishi"
"Hii saan.. Samanvi"
"Hw r u" I Asked him. "Haa fine" I smiled to his reply and asked "only fine, u should say  fantastic or suberb. Tomorrow is ur engagement and u are saying only fine😀"
"Hmm" He nodded his head.
"Then" I asked him.
"I am sorry saanu, I am really sorry  I didn't mean to hurt you. Please give me chance to explain. I know ur hurt. Please forgive me whatever I did was for my parents" He replied his eyes filled with tears. But I stopped him my putting my finger on his lips.
"Today I am speaking u only have to listen. Don't interupt in between. Firstly I won't forgive u. U broke my heart to the extent that will never become normal. U know what rishi after my bad experience with my first relationship I never want all this. But u made me fall for u. Being a stupid I fall for u hardly and u will be the last  also. I won't love anyone because I can't. I don't need any explanation for ur engagement it's ur life u can do whatever you want. But please don't cheat her. Atleast be loyal you her. Anways ours is done. Congratulations rishi" After this I stood up from the chair and left from their but he was standing there only. After 10 steps I turned back and come in front of him and hugged him tightly tears were falling on my cheek. After the hug I take his hand in mine and said " U know what rishi I love u forever and ever and also I hate u forever. I wanted to tell u this because I want to free myself from the guilt that I didn't answered for ur confession. Don't think too much I will never come in front of ur eyes. I am going back to manglore. I will never come to banglore if in case I have to come. I will try my best to avoid u. From this day we both are strangers. I don't know who u are u can marry whom u want I don't have any problem. Thanks for everything. Haa wait I have something for u." I took a gift box from my bag and give to him. "Byeee" After saying this I hold his head and kissed his both cheeks and forhead. After waiting for 3 mins give a peck on his lips. He was standing like a sculpture. Tears are rolling from his eyes. After that I left from there. Actually I am feeling light after all this.
After coming to pg I called my mother.
"Hlo amma, I want comeback to home"
"What happened saanu why are u crying" She knows me very well. she cannot see me. But she finds out I am crying.  "No amma I am not crying. And I can't handle all these stresses here so I will quit my job here and prepare for my exams from there only please amma"
"Okay but u have 6 months to prepare why are taking so much stress. If u want to comeback u can it's ur house but u are not sounding good. something is wrong. Tell me what happened"
"Nothing amma I am good. Because of workload and exam tension. Tomorrow morning I am leaving from here. Inform appa to pick me up from railway station byee amma see u tomorrow"
"Byee take care"
After talking with my mother I packed all my bags  and read till 12 and slept.