A loving friendship

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                                                      (Ralph is 18 and Henry is 17 going to 18).

Do i like Ralph? yes ofc i do, but not in a romantic way, i mean i really don't know how i feel about him yet, and yes i know i've been his best friend for years, but smt seems diferrent now, i mean we do more less the same stuff we did when we were kids, but i fell  bit diferrent about him and i'm starting to think that i've been feeling this way before, but didn't know until now, i still think i don't like romantically, i just think is a very close friendship, nothing more.

I was lying in bed, fully awake and it was almost morning becouse i didn't sleep well last night, actually i haven't sleep well for a while now, which is awful, i suppose is the weird thoughts that keep me awake every night, but who knows, i just know that i think to much about some things and lately i been thinking about Ralph a lot, but as i said before, i don't like him romantically.

My alarm went off and i had to get up like every day, it never changes, but i need a life or that's what they say every time the get the chance to, but why do they get to choose my future?, i don't get it, it's my life and i do what i want.

I went to my closet and searched for clothes to put on, and i find one of Ralph's hoodies, he gave it to me one day i forgot to wear a jumper and it was raining and cold and i keep forgetting to give it back, it's not like he asks for it, but it feels weird having his jacket in my closet you know?, i mean you guys don't keep arround your best friends clothes do you?, but on the other hand it gives me comfort when bad things happen, sometimes i even sleep whit it on, but i don't like him right?, i think the jacket makes think about him and about my feeling towards him, but i think is just a temporary thing.

I smile a bit watching the jacket until i come back to reality and grab a white oversize shirt and baggy jeans whit pockets on the sides, i went downstairs and saw worm changing in his room, why does he keep the door open?, since he became a preteen he became less cary about things, i can say that's normal, i do it too but is still socking knowing he was "the perfect angel".

I got to the kitchen and found mom making breakfast for us. "Morning Henry" She greeted me whit a smile. "Morning..." I said a bit sleepy and sat down and poured milk on a glass, i sigh, why did i had to get up early? i didn't have anything to do yet, ugh!, i hate getting so soon, normal people would, but not me, i could wake up at 11 or 12 and skip lunch or eat lunch later, just let me sleep, please.

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Do u think Henry has a crush on Ralph? 🤔.