"If you truly wish to be with me, know this..." He whispers into the darkness while holding me, "I will control you, command you and tell you what to do." I remember how my eyes burst wide open and I tried to pull free. I completely freaked out. Who...
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Once we had gotten into the same mindset... And body length we couldn't stop the kissing. Or the touching. We were still hanging out as a group but me and Aron mainly focused on each other. The only time we had to spend together after all was during the school hours and it frustrated us both. He was not allowed to sit on the phone all evening and I had to work after school so I couldn't hang out while they waited for their school bus.
I couldn't help but notice how excited I got him with just my presence. The fashion for boys was quite forgiving at the time with those big loose jeans and tight boxers underneath. All I had to do was to lean against him gently and put my hand on his stomach, feel those muscles and kiss his neck, slowly and gently. It looked quite innocent to an untrained eye but he was on fire in most recess.
"Wish I could show you what you do to me." Was the most common whisper from him to me. And oh boy did I wish he could have. I had a good idea of it, thanks to my dad's video stash though!
School went on like normally until one november day when Pia came to the group and said,
"We could go spend a weekend at my family's cabin. Have fun for two days." Everyone was on board for that, but I had to warm up my mum to the idea for a week before I plain simply asked if I could spend a weekend with my friends.
She had met the girls and she liked them, Pia's mother was a regular customer at work and they got along nicely. Pia assured me that her parents were cool and knew really what was going on but wouldn't burn me for telling mum that there would be boys too. And to my amazement. It worked.
November, cold and snow. Dark and cold. Snow and dark. There was barely any sunlight, but the Saturday morning I was picked up by Pia's parents from my home was sunny and it was so beautiful.
She was right, her parents were cool and made a whole lot of jokes about how we all should behave and not do something they did not do when they were young. I remember wondering, what did they do when they were our age? Pia was just laughing and making fun of them as they drove us all to the cabin.
It was a simple forest cabin and it had a small sauna building behind so we could warm it up if we so wished. I remember how Aron dug his nose deep into my neck, inhaling the scent of me and then gently biting my neck, sending a million shivers through my body and I had to turn to him, give him a stern look.
"Behave." I whisper and he grins at me,
"Maybe soon I don't have to." He answers whispering straight into my ear and I have to push him away so he can calm down. I hide the fact that I am well prepared for what he hints at me. I had bought a magazine from the bookstore I worked at aimed for teens and late teens. It had appropriately an article about sex, the first time and how to prepare for it. How to know if you're ready and what not.
I think I have been ready since I met Ollie to be honest. And sex was not a hidden subject in my home, it was openly discussed just like periods and other subjects.
