Daddys girl

scars and poison

Warning this book may be triggering I will give warning if u just wanna skip those parts and I'll do a bold sentence when its over btw triggering moment now .........

I put the razor to my wrist back and forth back and forth my shiney my friend my blade this thing is what keeps my sanity this is what helps me this is what I know and love after a few cuts I put it back in the ok its over.......... knife and return it to my dads room yes it was his he doesn't know neither does my mom she doesn't care about me one time I twisted my ankle she didn't even look up from her phone then I had to limp to the hospital with my little sister after coming back she was still at the park bench finally my sister asked if we could go home and she said yes I hate my life after returning my friend I walked into my room I grabbed my black skull PJ pants and a botdf tank top and layed down my house was empty they where at dinner I was forgotten I can't take it anymore I'm done I looked at my closet and saw a purse hanging there its straps clipped on and off so I walked up to it un clipping it and making a noose then I put it up on my ceiling on the hook that held my cool light thingy on a stool I stepped up then put one foot off "Hey! Poison!" My dad called what am I doing I grabbed the noose and threw it in the closet and shoved the stool over to the table my dad would brake and I can't leave my sister I waved at my dad faking tiredness and went back to my room I layed down and wrote in my black journal I wish I could die commit suicide I want to be gone forever I know that my life is over but I can't pull the trigger I don't wanna go to hell I just wanna be loved I don't care just be loved I want to be done for good and left alone in a dark space I find comfort in my mind I am fine I think about things that would make you wanna hide I am never alone my monsters are always there I want to be free to just be me so let me go I'm sorry but I'm done I want to be free so my gun is loaded my wrope is tyed my wrist is slit I've committed suicide
This is my song I will sue you for using it!!!!!

After writing this I layed down going to sleep.

Listening to all your hate by black veil brides