When will anything i do in my life be good enough for you. When will you love me for who i am and not the idea of me that you've created in your eyes. My job is not good enough, my lifestyle isn't good enough. Am i not good enough as i am without having to change for anyone. I love what i do, who I'm with, and how i run my life. It's my life, after all, and I'm the only one who needs to be happy with it, so don't try to change me.
I'm not a child to control. I have a life to live, and I'm gonna do it my own way. So stop with the condescending attitude. I'm not the child I used to be, the one that you could always walk over and manipulate.
I'm stronger than I use to be, the powers in my hands, I get to be the one who finally gets to control my life the way I want to and do the things that I need and want to do to be successful in my own way. Now that I've said what I said, I'm finally free, free to be me, free to find who i am and who I want to be. Those chains that held me down have broken, setting me free at last.
You once pulled my strings, making every decision for me about who I am and was. Your control over me played on repeat and continued to hurt me, but I always forgave you cause I thought it was normal and became used to the abuse. Whenever i tried to change and break free. You always said sorry, and I'd crumble and then realise it was no use. You hurt me,played me, used me, and abused me. There was no escape, only comfort through music and fantasy, or so was thought. Freedom was finally found with the help of a guiding hand who saw the pain and sorrow of the innocent mind.
You can not and will not use me anymore as I am free and will fight for myself and my future. No more pain, no more abuse, no more sorrow, and finally no more manipulation, the strings you use to pull have finally snapped freeing me. You have no control over me anymore as for the first time I have control, and I will not stand your torment, not ever again.
I AM FREE
I AM IN CONTROL
I AM FINALLY ME.
