When German Girl, Lena Müller, and British Boy, Lando Norris fall in love and discover that life isn't always how you plan it to be. Sometimes things are harder. And sometimes things are completely unexpected.
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~ Tri...
I was brain dead. My attempt to kill myself was not fully successful. I couldn't hear or see anything. I was completely in my own world. I didn't even know what happened with Lando. I hoped he had a good lawyer and managed to get out but I honestly had no clue. I didn't even know if I was in the hospital. I remember giving Daxie to one of Lando's friends but that's it. I was brain dead for ages. I didn't know if I would ever wake up. Until I did. A couple months later I woke up but nobody had my phone. I must have left it at our apartment. I was let out 2 weeks later and it was the British GP. I knew I had to get there. I got back to my apartment and checked Lando's location. Silverstone. He actually got out of prison. He must have found a really good lawyer. I got to the paddock and usually they would just let me in but this time they wouldn't. I was so fucking confused until I saw Lando through the entrance... kissing another girl... did he actually move on...? The girl left and I saw Lando looking at the entrance of the paddock and he saw me. He got the security to let me in and I looked at him in disbelief.
"Lena..." he said.
"Lan... who was that girl...?" I said while trying to hold back tears.
"That's... Maria. My... girlfriend" he said. My heart shattered in that moment. He actually moved on...
"you found someone new...? you actually moved on...?" I said with my voice cracking from my tears that I was holding in.
"I didn't want to... but I needed someone to find comfort in. I came and saw you and the doctors said you weren't likely to make any progress so I remembered what you said and I found someone. I thought that was what you wanted...?" He said.
"Yeah, I wanted that for you if I was actually dead!!" I said while snapping slightly.
"I thought you were dead!! I wouldn't have moved on if I thought you weren't dead!!" He said.
"What does this mean for us then...?" I asked.
"I don't know. I love you, Lena. More than literally anything in the world but I can't just throw Maria under the bus like that" he said. I guess he was right but it still hurt to hear that. He took a deep breath and took me to his driver room. That exact room was where we had our first kiss. Our first confession. Where we truly realised we loved each other. The race had already finished so he had free time. He brought me into the room and pressed his lips onto mine. I didn't feel bad for Maria at all. Technically me and Lando never broke up so... we could still kiss. It felt so good to have his lips back on mine. To feel his hands on my body. To push my hands into his curls. Everything was so good until we heard the door start to unlock. We got off each other and sat separately and there was Maria. Holding my fucking dog. What the fuck. Stealing my man was one thing but stealing my fucking dog was a completely new thing. I also saw her wearing some of my jewellery. Did she steal that? Did Lando give that to her? Did she fucking sleep in my bed? I was fucked off big time. Lando never said who he was choosing so I took Daxie out of Maria's arms and looked at Lando.
"You have 2 days to make this choice. It's either me or Maria" I said. I knew it would hurt even more knowing that in 2 days time it would have been our 1 year anniversary. I sent him a link to the park I was going to meet him at. He had to make a choice by then.
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