Umaasa (Ba Sa Wala?)

chapter x i : mutual emotions

"..Ang cute mo naman kapag indenial ka.."

"..A- ano..?"

Bago ko pa maproseso ang pasimple niyang paghalik sa mga labi ko, I felt his lips once more, already passionately moving against mine..

Adjusting his position sa masikip at maliit na sofa na hinihigaan namin at that moment, pasimple niyang ipinalibot ang isa niyang kamay around my waist, as he gently held the side of my head with his other, deepening his kiss even further..

As if things weren't already escalating at such a fast phase like they already were, with his one hand, holding onto my waist, I felt him, already gently pulling my body closer towards his..

In just one flick of a switch, his soft and gentle, yet very passionate and full of emotions kisses being the trigger to that switch, I..finally gave in..

Without fully noticing it, my lips were beginning to fully syncronize with his, as the moment finally took control of me..

Tucking in a piece of loose hair na nakaharang sa mukha ko, I felt a small smile forming on Vaughnn's lips as I began answering his kisses..

...The whole moment was a just a whole feeling I almost didn't want to end..

..In all honesty, a feeling I didn't expect I would enjoy this much...

Kaya lang, aaminin ko..though everything at that moment felt like the whole world stopped for the two of us, and the feeling of being on cloud nine mainly took control of me, this lingering feeling of uncertainty now remains..

"..Now what? Alam niya na yung nararamdaman ko towards sa kaniya.."

"..What if pinaghalong kalasingan at lagnat niya lang pala yung reason bakit niya ko hinalikan..?"

"..Maaalala niya pa kaya 'tong lahat by bukas..?"

..I was enjoying the moment--- yes, I was, but some part of me was still scared...

..Scared of falling for someone like him..

"..Huwag kang matakot mahulog sa kaniya..kasi alam kong sasaluhin ka din naman niya.."

As the kiss finally comes to its end, only ending after the two of us were practically already gasping for air, my hand remained in a tight, grasping position, holding onto the back part of Vaughnn's shirt.

...I would admit, I don't know how to exactly respond after such interaction between the two of us..

..That was my first time sharing a kiss like that with someone, hell..that was my first time sharing a kiss with Vaughnn. With Vaughnn fucking delos Santos..

So..like the clueless and innocent big child that I was, I instinctly lowered my head down, trying to avoid his gaze at that very moment.

..Not just because I was shy and a bit speechless after what just happened, but also because I was scared..unsure, and overall just at a lost regarding my true feelings towards him..

Probably noticing this little gesture of mine, he commented, "..Hey, is everything fine? Why are you..all of a sudden hiding your face from me..?"

Napaka-comforting na tanong sa akin ni Vaughnn, as he then lifted my chin up, leaving me with no choice but to face him as well as his gaze.

Seeing him eye-to-eye, his face were all just as red as mine as his gaze stayed stuck on me, not even moving just one bit..