Do I need to introduce myself?
I really never thought I would want to share this but in thinking it's help shift away this mf always trying to make me cry and hurt myself.
For some reasons I have these thoughts harbouring in my head dropping what people call lies,that ik not good enough,that I'm not worth living,I know I did nothing but how am I sure when this thought is overwhelming the confidence I have in myself.
I know a lot of times I rush to pick up something that could do the job smoothly,just a cut and poof angel is dead but once it's at its peak it drops and then I'm back to forcing myself to smile and then the tears starts dropping,do I have a problem?
Is it just in my head?
Am I reacting to what happened earlier that I can't remember or are my thoughts just playing with me?
Or my body gradually falling apart?.
It's now as if sad songs are specially for me because I'm always hearing one,it's with I'm the one playing or my head just saved the playlist already.
I literally hear every word and it's repeating "you don't deserve to live"
"Death can solve this" it says again.it is because of me always mourning my late dad or is it just pains and sorrow growing on it's own?
I think I'm the most confusing human on earth because other normal depressed people go and end it but I'm stucked with curing and trying to help others that are obviously better than me.
YOU ARE READING
Diary of depressed thoughts
Short Storywhen we are depressed we just feel like saying stuffs to people but we can't,what if you could write them?
