TEACH ME PROFESSOR [Elizabeth Olsen]

Chapter 103 - Lights on

Days blended into one another, a never-ending cycle of numbness and despair.
It seems a tunnel with no way out.
Everything muffled around me, I've become a ghost haunting these walls, who's crumbling day after day.
I'm here, but at the same time not, sitting as I look out the window as the time slipping out of my hands.
It hurts so fucking much.
It's like a knot has formed around my heart and I can't even breath without feeling this pain.
Love was supposed to lift me up, but instead, it's left me shattered and hollow.
I never think that love could hurt this way, I never think that she could ever inflict such pain upon me.
It's like dying, except every fiber of me being is still alive, still feeling every cut inflicted upon it.
And that's even worse of dying.

With time, the pain morphs into numbness, a shield that protects my feelings, until it hardens into a seething rage and bitter resentment.
People move through the house-my mom, my sisters, even Scarlett but their voices fade into the air as their figures blending into my tears.
Without her, there's no one here for me anymore.
Nothing feels right.
A distant noise pierce the silence, i blink trying to focus and I see MK standing in front of me.
Concern etches into every line of her face as she reaches out of me, touching gently my shoulder.
"Hey are you okay?" she asks, her voice fills with worry.
I struggle to find my voice, to push back the overwhelming of my emotions.
"I-i don't know anymore" i manage to whisper
Her eyes fills with compassion and hugs me from behind.
"I'm so sorry Liz" she says, i frown at first, but then I realize
I lower my gaze, my phone in my tremble hands, and the paparazzi's pictures of y/n and Aubrey at an airport hits me again.
"Oh..." i whimper
"It seems they've already found time for their honeymoon" i add joking bitterly, but actually feeling my heart shatter into pieces.
"You'll see Liz, everything will be okay, she will have definitely an explanati-"
"Wait what? You're kidding right? What kind of explanation should there be for this other than that she fucking cheated on me!" I cut her off, needing to release my pain
"Liz please, try to be reasonable-"
"MK what a fuck! Are you really defending her?" i lash out at my sister
"I'm not defending her Liz, I'm just trying to make you see the situation from another perspective" she explains calmly, but anger is already boiling in my veins
"You're really defending a stranger instead of your sister, are you really choosing her over me, how dare you MK? Where's your loyalty to me huh?" I ask, annoyed by her words
"I'm not picking sides, but I know y/n, and I'm sure she would never do something like that to you. I know her well enough to be sure-"
"Oh you know her well? Really?" I cut her off with a bitter laugh
"And since when have you know her so well? I didn't realize you two were so close" i interrogate her
"Liz please-"
"Please what, MK? I really want to know how you suddenly know her better then me, when did you two spent all this time together, huh?"
"Liz, stop it" she tries to interrupt me but I've already lost all rationality.
"Maybe there's something you need to tell me, sister? Was there something between you two? I mean, it wouldn't surprise me, especially since you're defending her like this" i accuse her gritting my teeth
"Liz-really stop it-"
"Oh y/n here, oh y/n there, oh I adore you" i say mimicking her
"Liz i-"
"Don't think I didn't notice your attitude around her, MK. I can't believe you two did this to me"
"Liz are you kidding? What's wrong with you?" She says, equally frustrated
"I'm just connecting the dots, MK. I think I get it now-"
"Okay, I'll stop you right here. You're out of your mind, Elizabeth. I don't even know how you could think something like that. But I'm not here to indulge your paranoia. Get a grip and then we can talk" she tells me, grabbing her things and turning to leave
"Fine, just go! Act just like her! Do like everyone else! I don't need anyone!" I yell, throwing a pillow
She looks back at me briefly, tears filling her eyes
"I don't recognize you Liz, i-i don't even know who you are anymore. It's like looking at a stranger and honestly, maybe it's a good thing that y/n moved away from you. Just think if she saw you like this right now, what would she think?" she whispers, before turning and leaving
"Fuck you! Fuck you! Fuck y/n!" I scream desperately, tears flowing uncontrollably down my cheeks once again, even thinking they had dried up.