( DESIRE )

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The redhead laid on his bed with nothing but a frown on his mouth. He really missed Y/N. It'd been a couple days since he'd seen her, and he didn't want to bother her. He was glad she wasn't ghosting him because they texted eachother back and forth, but her responses were still slow and dry, it made his heart ache. He wanted her to need him the way he needed her to function, or to even live. It wasn't like he ever cared about his love for her being healthy, so he wondered why she couldn't feel the same way.

He glanced at all of the people that blew up his notifications. It'd been quite some time, and his fame was only growing. He couldn't say he was happy about that, especially because of all of the attention he got from other women. He wanted nobody but Y/N to pay attention to him, stalking his every move and digging up random facts about him, not these weird people he'd never met.

Diamond.thingggg
How come Jackson just disappeared
off of the face of the earth?

— 1 reply

OllieAndBerrnieee
Wouldn't you if you got caught
in a huge lie? LMAO

Jacksons.hart
Please he needs to come back we all miss
him so muchhh

Unikat548
I love him why did he have to go

User28293966100
lol the second we got an actual
cute celebrity he vanishes

As he read those comments, he began to feel a little guilty for ghosting everyone, but he didn't know what he was going to do with the fame if he couldn't talk about Y/N. He only wanted to drool over her to everybody else. He even wanted to let them know that they were going to get married atleast one day, but now he couldn't, and that hurt him alot. He couldn't understand why she didn't want him showing her off.

He even started wondering if the reason why she didn't want that was because she was more embarrassed of his looks rather than his age. It was all too confusing for him, he didn't want to deal with any of this. He just wished that Y/N wasn't a celebrity because the fact that she was practically ate him alive.

Sighing out to himself, the blue eyed teen then ran a few of his fingers through his hair, and went onto Y/Ns social media, but what he saw caused his heart to sink, and it was almost as if he'd just been stabbed through the heart. There she was, making kissy lips towards a bare chest that Jackson obviously didn't recognize. This sent explosions off in his mind, and he heard himself wince in disgust, confusion and anger.

It was like he'd just lost complete control of his breathing pattern, and he could've sworn he was having a whole panic attack. He allowed his lips to tremble while he pressed his thumb down against the word that read comments.

Jackson looked at them and noticed that everyone else was also confused about her dating life. She didn't really say anything about the redhead and hers situation, but everyone automatically assumed they were going out with one another. It was very obvious that she posted this to stop some kind of rumor of that in his eyes though, and he really hated that.

He felt his blood boiling inside of him. He wanted nothing more than to kick the skull of whoever it was Y/N was cuddling on top of, even though he knew that wouldn't be enough. He wanted to cause him permanent damage. He wanted him dead. He didn't care who else knew him or even cared about him. All he cared about was him being dead, and even he didn't know he could feel this way anymore since he knew the celebrity personally now.

After a few seconds of feeling nothing but anger, the settling feeling of numbness grew inside of him, and he almost felt like he was dissociating. He calmed himself down by taking a few breaths, but it wasn't too long until he was wondering how he was going to get revenge on the woman.

Staring into the nothingness with a bunch of random thoughts flooding his mind, that's when his eyebrows raised and he piped up, fully sitting himself up with a huff. Loosening his grip on his phone, that's when he got on the biggest app he knew, and he set his device up just by sitting it in his hand.

Jackson then pressed on the button that said LIVE! all over it, and it wasn't long until people were flooding his comment section, wondering where he had been. They all even noticed the upset expression on his face, but he didn't say a word, all he did was read what they were saying, waiting for more people to come in to greet him. After he spent a few more minutes just staring, a whopping forty five thousand people were watching him from their homes or wherever they were. Now he was ready to break his silence.

"Did you guys see that photo of Y/N, or.. was it just me??" Was the first thing he asked. Of course he knew they'd seen it, he just wanted to be messy and he was purposely sending shade to the H/C haired woman without a care in the world. He didn't care for her PR team at all either now that he had his own little fan base that also had his back.