my crazy clown... (sdj x reader!)

chapter 1: meeting him.

A soft voice came from the void... "Where am I?" It said, it sounded like a man's voice. He stops and looks me. I believe I see the man smiling at me "I don't mean to be rude," he started "but... I don't remember seeing a face like yours before." He said then staying quite for a moment. I see his hand go to his face "come to think about it... It's been a while since I've seen anyone at all. Haha!" He laughs a bit but his laughter died down... "I haven't slept in ages.." He said sounding sad. "But you... I don't know you. K don't think this is a dream this time." He said sounding a bit depressed. "I think.... I think you're real. Right?" He asked it sounded like he was begging and hoping he wasn't dreaming. I back up visibly scared. "It's okay." He said in a calming voice like he wasn't gonna hurt me. "You don't need to be scared." I think he's holding his hand out to me... "I'm sure that you and I will become fast friends soon enough. But where are my manners?" He asked himself laughing a bit "I don't believe I even caught your name.... You DO have one, don't you?" He asked I look at him "Y/n..." I say softly "Y/n?" He asked I don't think he heard me correctly "is that right?" I nodded he smiled, I'm slowly able to see his face more clearly. "It's nice to meet you, y/n." We stay quiet for a moment, he then grabbed my hands he felt so cold... "You don't know what it's been like for me in there..." He said sounding shakey.
"i t ' s b e e n h e l l , h a h a. . ."
He said getting more and more shakey.
"F o r a s e c o n d t h e r e. . . " he said rubbing my hands, their smaller then his large gloved hands "I a l m o s t t h o u g h t G o d a b a n d o n e d m e." He said I saw tears fall from his face but I couldn't see his eyes. "But im sure it was all one big mistake!" He said laughing a bit "we all make mistakes, even at the best of times! All that matters now is that I have a N E W F R I E N D." he said I finally see his smile and under his eyes "and we can spend the rest of forever doing all sorts of fun things together..." He said softly he slowly moved my hand to his cheek. He slowly got closer to my head his forehead against mine. "And we never have to be lonely eve again..." He said I finally see his full face he looks so sad.. "It's so cold in there..." He said before I black out...