IT'S OKAY

DARKNESS

In a room filled with light and life birds chirping in every side of the window indicating that it's morning time for people to wake and start doing things that are necessary and yield profit in life I lay in my bed alive but lifeless emotionally.
I stood at the window looking down and gazing upon the horizon indeed it was beautiful at it's peek
I decided to take my business else where preparing to go to school this was the first day of school after the summer holidays
I didn't feel excited or happy neither was I sad or gloomy I was just there I didn't know how to feel I stood in the midst of the students waiting to be directed since there was a meeting before we could start our classes I laughed a little bit at the jokes they made but then I realized I didn't and would never fit in that gap so I decided to take my laughter some place different
I was different than all of them when people got excited going to parties I was just there with my glass of non alcoholic wine staring at people doing all the shenanigans they could
I didn't fit in I was numb to all the emotions around me though it didn't really show on my face but my heart was really function less as much as I wished it not to be it was
During the summer holiday alot had occurred and I didn't realize my purpose yet from friends stubbing you and to family ditching and dissing you when you aren't around I felt worthless despised sad and week and everything lost colour to me my world was a cage of doom filled with crashed dreams and hopes the little girl who was so curious was lying helplessly on a field of dark colored roses she was almost loosing the meaning of life and worst of all she started loosing herself in the midst of her emotional battle