~deepika.~ (REGRETAVATOR STORY)

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Gnarpy: "I don't know..."

Gnarpy sits on a chair in a room. He has been on Earth for some years now. Gnarpy has taken some English lessons, after a few months of English lessons, he lost the ailen accent. Gnarpy legally changed his pronouns to "He/him". He is now talking to his psychiatrist Pest.

Gnarpy: "Whenever i see her, I just wanna..."

Gnarpy pauses for a moment.

Gnarpy: "I don't know, i wanna..."

Gnarpy: "Undress her... I want to tie her up..."

Gnarpy: "I wanna... pump her with my big, monster dick..."

Gnarpy: "Pump pump pump pump..."

Gnarpy: "Till she screams out my name and i wanna...flip her ass right over and..."

Gnarpy: "...Pump her even more..."

Gnarpy: "I would do it so hard that my dick striked through her...and then my...cum squirts out of her eyes and mouth..."

Gnarpy breathes heavily for a moment.

Gnarpy: "And not i could ever...actually...do that."

Gnarpy: "See...she only saw how hard i felt."

Gnarpy: "Yeah, deep down...i really cared for her. Respected her... that she would love me back."

Gnarpy: "Maybe..." (Gnarpy puts a hand on his face) "Oh, she doesn't know that i even exist..."

Gnarpy sighs, he puts his hand down.

Gnarpy: "I mean, she knows that i exist...we are neighbors...you know."

Gnarpy: "You know smile politely at eachother but..."

Gnarpy breathes heavily some more.

Gnarpy: "I don't know if i can ever began to talk to somebody or what can i talk about. I have nothing to talk about, I bore people."

Gnarpy: "I'm boring... I know. I've been told before, so don't tell me it's not true... 'Cause it's a fact. I bore people..."

Pest is sitting on the other side of the room, holding a pen and a notebook.

Gnarpy: "People look at me... and they get bored. They listen to me and they zone out, bored. "Who is that boring person?" They think. And for her... to see how boring I am? No, no, no... It's better I say nothing... and hope... though right now, I have to say, if I were to suddenly jump out of my window, she wouldn't care."

Gnarpy: "I mean,she'd care... of course, she'd care, I mean, she is a big cat... but I mean she'd care the way you care about a stranger you read about in the paper that jumps in front of a running subway train, a stranger whose name you're never sure how to pronounce, if it's even printed..."

Pest seems to be talking in his mind.

Pest: (Things to do...get milk...a dozen eggs...maybe one of those disposable cameras for the weekend...and stop at the Seven-Eleven on the way home...i need to get the dry cleaning done first...i gotta check Albert's homework...and call someone about there appointment on Wednesday...and i gotta reschedule the dentist...)

Gnarpy: "You know what i'm gonna do?"

Pest: (...And get the dog cleaned...)

Gnarpy: "The next time i see her...
The soon as i see her... I'm just gonna tell her... I'm gonna tell her that I uh... find her... attractive."