Suzuki Iruma. A male who always takes the spotlight. A male who always smiles. (He doesn't)
Asmodeus Alice lost to Iruma in a duel and has been Iruma's "friend" for a few months now. Along with Clara Valac, who was Iruma's 2nd friend he made in the school, Babyls. Thanks to them, there hasn't been a time where you haven't seen Iruma smiling brightly.
But then, while Purson Soi were assisting his batra (club) Purson heard crying. Who could that be? And why were they crying? He thought about leaving them alone, but Iruma wouldn't do that, wouldn't he? So he opened the door. And to his surprise, it was Iruma.
"..Why can't anybody just hold me?"
Purson Soi managed to activate his bloodline magic (Detection-warding / It makes people unable to notice his presence.) before he could get caught. He finally understood. Everytime Iruma was shown physical affection and when they let go, he looked like he craved more.
"..I want to feel that warm embrace again.."
Iruma said with tear stains on his cheeks. Iruma was lacking physical affection. Who treated him that badly? Did his parents pay attention to him? Was he even loved? Probably not.
"(Soft crying)"
Purson Soi revealed himself and sat beside Iruma. Iruma's eyes widened in shock, but his grief took over him, he slowly leaned onto his shoulder, and let it out. Those years of keeping the pain in, out.
"..I want to be loved.."
Iruma said before crying more and more. Everyone thought Iruma was "perfect", guess not. He was dealing with something so hard to keep in, and they didn't even notice. He was like a good liar, even though he never usually lies.
Purson opened his mouth, and started to try to comfort Iruma.
"I know I'm not the best guy for comforting, but you should know that we're here. I'm here. You should know you're not alone. In moments when physical affection feels scarce, it's crucial to remember that your worth isn't determined by the amount of hugs, kisses, or cuddles you receive. Your value as a person goes far beyond physical touch; it lies in the love you give, the kindness you show, and the person you are at your core. Even though you may yearn for physical closeness, it's essential to recognize that your worthiness of love and affection isn't contingent upon someone else's ability to provide it. Your heart is full of love, and that love will find its way back to you in various forms, whether through self-care practices, friendships, family bonds, or even interactions with pets. Embracing moments of solitude can also provide opportunities for self-nurturing and introspection, fostering a deeper connection with yourself. Trust in the journey of self-love and self-acceptance, knowing that the universe has a way of aligning us with the love and affection we deeply desire when the time is right. Your presence in this world is a gift, and your capacity to love is boundless, even in the absence of physical affection."
"..."
Iruma had slowly stopped crying and was just resting his head on Purson's shoulder. He was listening and hearing every word he said.
"..."
He didn't look like she was processing his words now. He just was listening. His body was tired of all this built up emotions. Purson could practically feel how tired he was. He looked like he was going to fall asleep.
Not knowing what to do, Purson decides to yap some more.
"Hey, If you're struggling with suicidal thoughts, please know that you're not alone. Your feelings are valid, and there is support available to help you through this difficult time. It's okay to reach out for help, whether it's to a trusted friend, family member, therapist, or helpline. You are worthy of love, care, and support, even if it may not feel that way right now. Your life has value, and there are people who care deeply about you, even if it might not always seem like it. Remember that suicidal thoughts are temporary, and with the right support and treatment, things can get better. There are many resources and professionals who are trained to help you navigate through these dark moments. You deserve to feel safe and supported, and there are people who want to help you find hope and healing. It's important to take things one step at a time and to prioritize your well-being. You are not alone in your struggles, and there are others who have been where you are and have found a way through. Your life is precious, and there is still so much ahead of you, even if it's hard to see right now. It's okay to ask for help, and it's okay to lean on others for support during this challenging time. You are not a burden, and your struggles do not define you. You have the strength within you to overcome these challenges, even when it feels impossible. It's important to practice self-care and to engage in activities that bring you comfort and peace. Your feelings are valid, and it's okay to seek help and support when you need it most. You are worthy of love, compassion, and understanding, and there are people who care about you deeply. Please remember that you are not alone, and there is hope for a brighter future, even in the midst of darkness. You are deserving of support, understanding, and compassion, and there are people who want to help you through this difficult time. You are not alone, and there are people who care about you and want to support you in your journey toward healing. It's okay to reach out for help, and it's important to prioritize your well-being and safety. You are not alone, and there are people who care about you and want to support you through this difficult time."
