TEACH ME PROFESSOR [Elizabeth Olsen]

Chapter 104 - Cacio and pepe on the floor

Y/N'S POV

My breath catch in my throat as her words echoes in my ears, everything muffle around me, distant as if coming from another world.
A chill run down to my spine and my heart begin to race uncontrollably.
I glance around, my eyes full of tears and the reality sinks in.
A wave of emotions crashes over me, i struggle to find my voice, to form some kind of thoughts amidst the chaos raging inside me.
"I'm so sorry y/n, I know how much you cared about her"
"I-I understand-thanks for telling me" i manage to choke out, my voice barely a whisper
I know it would have happened, but I still had hope after all
And now here I am, grappling with the void she's left behind.
It's a reality too painful to bear, too impossible to accept.
As the phone slips from my grasp, clattering against the countertop, i stand there frozen in place.
Everything feels surreal, the voices around me fade into a distant murmur, drowning in some kind of nightmare from which I can't wake up.
I close my eyes, my hands tremble, fingers curling into fists at my sides, as if trying to anchor myself to reality.

I take a shaky breath, forcing myself to focus on the present and in that moment I see Matt approaching me.
"Two cacio and pepe for this lady-" his usual cheerful demeanor faltering as he notices my mood swing
"Hey y/n what happens? You were so happy just a few minutes ago" he asks worried as he sets the plates down gently
"I-it's okay-" i force a tight-lipped smile
"Just-i just got some bad news" i add with a whisper
"I'm so sorry to hear that, is there anything I can do?" he asks gently, his expressions softens into a comforting little smile.
"Don't worry Matt, you've done enough. These dishes smell delicious, thank you so much. Lizzie will be very happy" i affirm, despite having a knot of fear in my chest.
I need to come back to her, especially now.
I just want to eat these delicious plates with her, have some good laugh, talk for hours, just spending some time alone with her and back to a normal life.
"Come on little lover, run to her. You need her more than ever now" says Matt with a smirk on his lips
I offer him a smile in return, gathering my order and after say him goodbye I leave the restaurant.

I make my way to Marlene's plans boutique, intent on picking up Lizzie's favorite flowers.
And after that, everything is finally ready.
I've missed her so much and the thought of finally seeing her again fills me with trepidation.
I know, we should keep our distance, but i need her.
I need her warmth, I need her love, I need her understanding.
There's so much to say, so much to figure out and right now, especially after what happened with Aubrey, all I can think about is being back in her arms.

I finally rev my motorbike, the engine humming beneath me as I make my way to our house.
I take a deep breath, trying to calm the jumble of emotions swirling inside me as I nervously brush my fingers against the bouquet of flowers and tap on the bags with Matt's dishes.
I take a moment to compose myself, adjusting my hair and straightening my outfit.
God I'm so nervous
I clear my throat and rehearse what I'll say when I see her
"Hi Liz, it's me-no wait she can see me, of course she knows it's me...okay uhm- Hey Liz, I've missed you so much-shit no that's too cheesy-okay I'll just say 'hi'" i sigh, scratching my head.
I reach into my backpack and pull out the keys, my heart pounds in the chest.
I look at the bouquet and take again a deep breath
"Okay, these should do the trick" i mutter as i open the door
As I step inside, the house feels unusually quiet, and for a moment, I worry that Lizzie might not be home.
But after that, I hear faint sounds coming from the living room.
Quiet moans and low murmurs become louder and louder as i follow the sound, my heart sinking with each step.
As I reach the door to the living room, I hesitate for a moment.
From the frosted glass I see shadows mixing together, so i carefully place my ear on the door and hear heavy breaths blending together, close-knit moans and then it is in that moment that I hear her voice
"Y-yes keep going, p-please" she groans with pleasure
My eyes widen, already leaving room for tears
I muster up the courage too peek inside and what I see makes my heart drop to the pit of my stomach.
In the dimly lit room, I see Lizzie entwined with Robbie on the sofa, their naked bodies moving together in a way that leaves no room for doubt.
Their sweaty bodies rub together, their mouths devour each other with hunger and she allows him to be inside her with so much ease, without mercy towards me.
Like a ghost I'm standing here, frozen in place and I can't tear my eyes away, even though every fiber of my being wants to run far away from here.
I want to scream, to lash out at them, but the words stick in my throat.
Instead, the flowers and the bags slip from my trembling hands, crashing to the ground and scatters everywhere.
And it is in that moment, that she sees me.
Lizzie's eyes widen in shock as she turns to me
For a moment time seems to freeze as we lock gazes and I see the guilt flicker in her gaze.
"Y/n-i-" she starts, her voice faltering as she searches for words, but i can't bear to hear them.
She quickly gets up from Robbie's body, grabbing a robe to cover herself.
She tries to get closer to me but i step back
"You're fucking disgusting" I just whisper, my voice breaking from the effort to hold back my tears.
I turn on my heel and run away, desperate to escape this nightmare.
"Y/n please-let me explain" she calls after me, her voice echoing in the hallway.
I feel her hand grab my arm, trying to stop me, but i yank it away with a fierce, impulsive gesture, causing her to stumble and almost fall
"Don't you dare to fucking touch me!" I scream, my voice shaking with anger and heartbreak.
My lips tremble as i glare at her, feeling the full weight of her betrayal crashing down on me
From the shadows on the room, Robbie's figure approaches us, flanking Lizzie's speechless one.
"What the hell is he dong here? I thought he was in prison" I ask, looking straight into her eyes, but she lowers her gaze, visibly uncomfortable.
"Lizzie, you didn't tell her?" Robbie interjects smugly "Tell me what?" I ask, my confusion turning to irritation
"Robbie, please shut up" Lizzie pleads him, her voice shaking
"Tell me what, Elizabeth?" i demand this time, my anger rising
"I've never been to prison, Lizzie was so kind, enough to bail me out" he says, a satisfied smile spreading across his shit face.
"Jez Robbie, i told you to shut up!" she snaps
"It is true Elizabeth? He has been free all this time?" i ask, trembling with fury as she keeps her head down, unable to meet my eyes
"Lizzie answer me!" I yell, and she finally lifts her head, tears streaming down her face.
She nods, confirming everything
"I can't believe it" i whisper, feeling the ground shift beneath me.
I pace back and forth, pulling my hair nervously
"It can't be real, it can't be real, it can't be real-" I repeat to myself
"Y/n please i-" she tries to talk to me, but i slam my fist into the wall, making a loud thud as she backs away with fear
"Fuck you! I spent weeks in a cell waiting for you and you didn't wait a second to get him out of there" i shout, my knuckles are red and starting to bruise.
Lizzie looks at my hand, and i can see the instinct to reach out and help, but she holds back, knowing it would only make things worse.