The Words Behind Your Cold Heart

CHAPTER 44

"Sandara! You really chose that guy beside your family?!" the man shouting

"It's over jared! I don't fucking need you! You hurt me too much!" The woman said while holding her baggage

"Mommy? Where are you going??" The kid looking at her mother said

"Gideon baby? C'mon, Nix, Ck,LA,xander babies, please come here" she call me and my other brothers who's already in the living room, i hold xanders hand and come to our mother

She kneel down then wipe kuya gideon's tears, same as kuya nix and kuya Ck

"What's happening mommy?" xander ask our mother

"Your mommy is leaving, I'll  leave you child's on your father, he will taking care of you for a while, while we still can't solve our problems" our mother said

"Ha! She's not coming back" our father spat out, our mom just glared our father and look at us again

"J-just promise me you'll not hurting any girls, most of all your love ones...respect them and don't abuse them...do that just for mommy hm?" She said them tap our heads then kiss us then she stood up and start to leave

She stop on her tracks when xander talks

"So, you're leaving us? HAHA, how immature you are? " We widen our eyes i tried to stop him but she dodge it then stare on mommy coldly

"Xander baby, j-just understand our situation...i just can't stand on your father's--" xander cut her off

"Then leave, you're not my mother anymore...you chose another man just to escape on your responsibilities on your FIVE children's! Don't you ever ever come back here! I hate you!" Xander shout then leave the house running outside

I also run outside, I'm about to chase xander when i heard a 'beep' sound, i widen my eyes when i look at xander bloody lying on the street

"XANDER!!" i shout then run towards him

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"Oh my god xander! You're finally awake!" I said then touch his cheeks

He roam his eyes then he didn't see that he expected to see, he just coldly stare on the ceiling

"I hate her." He said then look sadly on him, i just startled when he laugh psychotic

I look at him in awe, while he just laughing...
Creepy

I open my eyes and saw darkness again, i roam my stares and notice the bowl of food and a glass of water, i sadly look on the floor,

I feel pity on Xander because of the young age he already have those problems...he didn't deserve it, we didn't deserve it.

Xander.

After i prepared a food on LA i immediately go to his room,(actually my room) i knock on the oak door then push lightly the door open

I saw him, lying, sleeping peacefully while snoring

I walk quietly on the room and put down the food beside the bed, after that i look at him, i already felt guilty... I'm too over protective on rhian, that's why i really hurt LA so bad.

I'm about to wake him up but i stopped when i heard him talking,

I knit my eyebrows then watch him talking while sleeping, i sit beside him bed.

"You little brat" he said then he smiled

I smiled too

"Stop xander..." He said lowly, I'm still listening on him

"Xander...." He call me

"Xander! Stop running!" He shout my name, i immediately run my hands on his cheeks waking him up

"LA, wake up" i said while shaking his face

"Xander...mommy didn't want to leave..." I stopped on my motions

"She just suffering on our dad too much" he said while still sleeping, i look at him coldly

That woman...she really brainwashed my brother's, she's still acting like a good and innocent mother...How pathetic

"She love you, she love us...she just tired of being with dad, forgive her." He said then snore again

I smile, forgive? Never. I stand up then leave that room

After she leave us? Forgive? I'm not insane to do that stupid things, i will never ever forgive that selfish woman.

She leave the responsibilities of being a mother in our stupid father. HAHA

Those stupid and toxic things needs to remove in this world, I don't really care about they're existence, cause i never felt that they are really exist.

I smile subconsciously then wipe my knife.

I felt a hot droplets of water falling down on my cheeks, i look on the mirror...and saw that stupid things continuely falling down on my cheeks.

I wipe it, but it didn't stop

"Stop" i still continue to wipe but those things still dropping

"I said stop!" I shout

I kneel down on the floor and touch my chest,  i cried

"Fuck! Fuck this life!"
"Fuck this family!"
"I hate you! You stupid selfish woman!!"
"I hate you irresponsible and arrogant flirty dick head!"
"I-i i fucking hate you!!" I shout and shout then punch the floor using my bare fist

You're no longer here suffering if those things remove in your life...

I close my eyes, and just listen on my friend...voice

"How? How can i remove those things in my life?" I ask him

Easy, just listen to me and do what I'm going to say...you can trust me?

"Ofcourse..."

Just. Kill. Them.

"How can you be sure that i will not suffer after i kill them?"

The only cause of your suffering are just those right? Some People also do that things, as a permanent solution of their problems...if they are tired they rest. If they are heart broken they actually end they're pain, many people already remove the cause of suffer in their life. Killing someone you don't really care, and hurting you too much. Deserve to be remove. Right?

I didn't answer and just stand up and wipe those tears again.

If you remove them in your life you're no longer feel suffer. You can leave with your life more peaceful, and happy...with rhian

I smile, then i laugh and laugh

"Removing those trash? What so easy" i said then laugh again