Have you stayed out to count the stars before?
Have you admired the moon before?
Have you appreciate the moon before?
Do you know how beautiful the moon is?
Have you been in pain before?
What is the heights of pain you've felt?
Have you ever sighed of depression?
Have you ever been scared to face reality?
Too scared!
APRIL 25TH 2024
No one want to face reality
Everyone wants it to be a dream
I want it to be one of my crazy dreams
Taking my mind off it isn't easy
Losing a part of you
Your mindset blur
Your head spinning
Have you ever prayed for reality to be a dream?
Have you ever been scared of reality?
Have you lost a part of you?
Have you ever been so sad?
I thought we would grow up together
I never planned for this even in twenty years
I'm in agony and pain
But can only say R.I.P TO MY BROTHER
We grew up together
Though we fight most times
I believe in cherishing our memories
I have nothing to hold unto except the memories
He could have hold on
He could have considered our pain
What about our mom
He could have considered her at least
I don't know how his last memories were
He passed through it alone
No family to comfort him
No motivation to keep living
He is six feet under the ground
Battling with underground reptiles
We're here helpless
Helplessly staring at the beautiful moon
He's all alone in the strange land
Is he fine facing judgement alone?
What about his dreams?
What about the future we planned together?
Here I am staring at the beautiful moon
Pretending to be fine
Finding it difficult to face reality
Not accepting reality
He has always been a child with big dreams
He couldn't achieve his dream
He could not finish his education
He left so painfully
Who would have though he'll be gone so soon?
Here we are wishing for a few more years
How we wish fifty more years will be added
How I wish it's a dream
I can't erase some of my childhood memories
I have to erase all my childhood memories
Cause it's filled with his laughter
It's filled with him
How will we live without a brother ?
How will I live with only sisters ?
How will momma cope without the opener of her womb?
How will dad cope without his only son?
We all waiting for him to start laughing
"You all thought I was dead"
And we all start laughing at our childishness
And it hits us ...Damn he's gone forever
He looked so lively just when we were together
No one knows he'll leave early
He planned so big with us
He watched videos and laughed with us
Did he know death was coming soon?
Was that why he spent time with us?
He could have said it
He could have struggled with the Angel of death
He was full of life few weeks ago
Why did he not battle it to the end?
Was he so tired that nothing could motivate him?
He could have taken the beautiful moon as motivation
I don't know how to console myself
Hiding in my shells not knowing what to do
Having my dream and his dream
I'll grant him all his wishes if I can
So sad!
He breathed his last alone
No one with him
Oh! How lonely he must have felt
I've imagined seeing his kids in the future
I've planned to make things difficult for his woman
I've dreamed of how he'll support her and make me jealous
What a shattered dream
Now I'm without him
We're without him
He's facing another phase of journey himself
A death without a cause
