Pure Bliss

29. My Daggered Heart

I awoke to a vision brewing in my mind, it was a sad vision, it was my mum dying in my arms.
I may be mad at my mum right now, but I wouldn't want anything bad happening to her, I got up out of bed.
I stretched, I quickly got dressed, putting on my bullet proof vest.
I grabbed my gun, my bag, my phone, my keys, etc.
I headed towards the door, opening it quickly, I closed the door behind me.
I ran towards my car, unlocked it, placed my seat belt on.
I threw my stuff next to me, not having any time to think or concentrate, about what I'm going to do next.
I headed towards Diego's mansion, as soon as I parked up, I took my seat belt off.
I quickly grabbed my belongings, whilst hurrying out of the car, I locked the car.
I ran towards the mansion, opening the door, as I crept inside.

"V? Are you okay?" Lion asked
"Where's mum?" I begged
"In her room, why?" Lion asked
I dropped my belongings onto the shiny, marble floor, I ran upstairs.
I strode towards mum's room, I open the door slowly, peeping my head round the corner.
She was laid on the bed, in a white, silky, nighty.
Riccardo was stood in the room, I gasped as I locked eyes with his, I grabbed my gun out of my pocket.
My blood began to boil, he has held my mum ransom, how many more things is he going to make me suffer from?
I point my gun at his forehead, not feeling any guilt or shame.
"Shoot me, instead of my mum" I cried
"V! No!" Mum shouted
I wasn't afraid, I was just protecting my family, I used to be afraid, not anymore.
Sometimes, you have to turn your fear into a weapon, you cannot have courage without fear.
As Riccardo went to shoot, my mum jumped in front of me, saving my life in the process.
"Mum!!!" I screamed
I shot at Riccardo, his body collapsed onto the floor, turning his pale body cold.
I had my mum in my arms, trying to talk, with every last breath she had within her.
"I'm s-s-sorry" Mum cried stroking my face.
"I can save you Mum, please let me heal you" I replied
Tears streamed down my face like a faucet, I couldn't contain them, they just poured out of me.

"You cannot save me baby, respect my wishes, let me go" Mum answered
How am I supposed to let her go? Yesterday, I was mad at her, now I'm going to be consumed with guilt, for the rest of my life.
My screams were heard throughout the entire mansion, you could hear the pain, you could hear the heart wrenching screams what had taken over me.
I wanted to save her, but I was too weak, I've already put my body at risk.
"I forgive you mum" I answered
"I'm s-s-still sorry" Mum replied
"Don't be, it's fine" I answered
"I love you my baby, it was nice to spend the rest of my days getting to know you" Mum replied
The only little time I had spent with my mum, was one of the best moments of my life, I would be forever grateful for her coming into my life.
I screamed for hours on end, I didn't let anybody touch her, or go near her.
How am I supposed to get through this?
How am I supposed to go through life without her?
Who am I going to have girly chats with?
I don't think I'm strong enough to let go.
I wish I could turn back time, whilst saving her life, but I can't.
Her blood was plastered all over my hands, it felt like I had just been tormented over and over again.
This felt like constant torture, the feeling of watching your own mum get shot, made me feel ill.

Her head ached my arms, but I couldn't seem to let go, Lion entered the room.
I was in my own world, the constant echo of my name being called, I couldn't process it.
Suddenly, reality hit me, "V? are you okay?" Lion asked
I turned my head towards him, I couldn't talk, no words were unable to come out of my mouth.
I didn't want to talk, I just wanted to be alone, to process it all, to grieve.
Lion hugged me tightly, my whole body felt numb, I just shut down completely.
I just held mum tightly in my arms, whilst she took her last breath, the excoriating pain what I had felt. I wouldn't wish it on my own worst enemy.
The feel of her warm skin, slowly turned cold, as I sat with her, the execrating pain I wouldn't wish on my own worst enemy.

Her body slowly started to disintegrate into cold ash, a piece of ash flew into my hand, I tugged at it.
I wanted to keep a piece of her, so I could still feel her spirit nearby, I held it close to my heart.
Tears fell upon the hardened, cold, powdery substance what laid upon my hand.
Suddenly, I felt a warmth, I looked up.
My mum was stood in front of me, I blinked for at least a thousand times, did I just revive her with my tears?
I didn't know there was a less dangerous way on how to revive people, did she know I could do this? Or was this something I had to learn myself?
"You didn't think you was going to get rid of me that easily, did you?" Mum asked
I wiped my tears away, I stood up, I ran towards her.
I hugged her, "I thought I lost you" I cried
"You could never lose me, my Violet-Rose"
Mum answered
A mothers love is unconditional, unique, and the most powerful beyond measure.
It has no limits, no boundaries, no matter how much you argue, nothing will come close to your compassionate bond.