So I came clean to Rosie to about my problem and she was very supporting
But the truth is I have scars I'm pretty sure we all do ,on our body's or in our mind.
I just happen to be the lucky one and have them in my mind all the time and on my body but it's not a crime ,no one cares so Why should I. Its not my fault I hide my secrets inside and run from life and plus its not like anyone notices so I just hide it inside and smile all the time.
I can't wait to get in the shower and cry so no one can hear and wait for everyone to fall asleep so I can fall apart, To me living is a full time job on it's on and everyone tells me it's a phase, just get over it oh and I like this one - I do it for attention, It feels like I'm stuck in the middle of the ocean drowning and everyone around me is breathing or they will be standing next to me and all I hear is them say learn how to swim and stop being a baby.
But I don't expect anyone to worry or care no one seems to and plus everyone thinks I'm a slut and a person who makes other people feel bad about themselves , it seems worthless and silly to other people so I don't expect anyone to stay or care and anyway who on earth would love a girl who cuts and has scars
But there are people out there with bigger problems Then me,so I suppose I'm not to important I mean I'm just another person who gets sad and is more sensitive and shy then what people actually realise.
So I don't worry to much it seems pointless
(It just the truth)
