casual affair

Chapter 12

Harry pov

I kissed Nialls collarbones and around his chest as his hands ran through my hair.
I kissed along his neck and he hummed at the touch.
This was all so delicate, something we hadn't done before.
He rocked his hips against me slightly and i firmly locked him down while holding his hips.
I peppered more kisses around his chest and neck until he was panting.
"Harry" he breathed out and rolled his head back.
"Yes love?" I asked in between kisses.
He whimpered against my hair.
"Please" he whispered.
I looked up into his eyes and kissed him gently.

I kissed him again, this time almost desperately.
Was this really the last time?

I shook the thought away and watched as Niall rocked his hips down again causing me to groan.

We got our underwear off and I put two fingers up to Nialls mouth and he wet them.

He slumped over my shoulder as I reached down and slowly entered them into him. He took a sharp breath and I hushed him in his ear.
"It's okay love i've got you" I whispered and kissed right above his ear.

I curled my fingers in and out for a few minutes opening him up. He was moaning and squirming around in my lap.

"Harry please" He begged into my ear.

I nodded and slowly removed my fingers and he scooted back to sit on my knees. I spit on my hand and stroked myself for a minute before I nodded to him.
He slowly lifted his thighs and scooted up aligning himself with me.
I helped him ease down onto my cock slowly.
"God" he moaned out swiftly and I smiled at him.
He paused for a moment to adjust once he finally fit all of me in.
I slowly lifted him a bit as he began to slowly bounce up and down.
"Fuck Ni" I groaned out and he smiled.

He placed his hands on my shoulders to steady him and mine were on his waist.
Both of us lost in the noises of the other as he slowly rode me.

I had no desire to speed this up, to quicken his movements.
He looked so beautiful like this, it pained my heart to imagine him doing this with another boy.

In my head he's all mine, so right now i'm going to let my mind run with this fantasy.

He rolled his head around biting his lip as he kept rocking his hips down and I leaned forward and peppered his neck again with kisses.

"So beautiful Niall" I whispered to him and he smiled with his eyes closed.

"The most beautiful boy,so good" I praised him and still peppered kisses and he hummed.

After a few minutes his legs start to lock up and I know he's close and so am I.
"Harry, i'm gonna-" he starts to say but is cut off by his own moan.

I squeezed his hips lightly and nodded to him.
"I know baby, come for me" I encouraged and he nodded and slightly picked up the pace.
With one last thrust he was coming undone in my lap, spilling all over my chest and I spilled into him.

We were both breathing heavily and we sat for a moment to come down from our highs.

I patted Nialls thigh and he nodded and slowly stood up for me to pull out of him.

I didn't realize somewhere in between that, i had gotten teary-eyed and one tear slipped down my cheek after he stood up.

I wiped it away quickly so Niall wouldn't see.

I went to the bathroom in the back of the room and got a towel for Niall to clean himself up.

I helped him back into his panties and shirt and put my shorts back on.

I sat back down on the bench and he returned laying in my lap.

We hadn't said a word to each other, neither of us wanted to be the one to say it.

He sighed into my chest.
"m gonna miss you" he mumbled.

My eyes stung again and my fantasy faded away and reality returned.

I nodded and lightly rubbed my hand up and down his thigh.

"Me too love" I whispered back.

There was so much more I wanted to say, but I can't. I can't be with him so there's no point in telling him anything.

We stayed like that for a moment when Niall slowly got up from the bench and turned to me.

"I'm tired Harry" he said and rubbed his eye.

I nodded, once again blinking back the stinging that came upon my eyes.

I stood up with him and we looked at eachother for a minute.

He gave me a small smile and I pulled him into me slowly hugging him.

His arms wrapped around my waist and his head laid onto my chest.

I hugged him tightly trying not to cry when I heard him sniffle.

"Niall?" I asked lightly, and he removed his head from my chest and looked up to me.

Tears running down his cheeks.

"Oh sweetie" I cried and pulled him back into me.

He began really crying then, squeezing my waist and mumbling different things.

"Why did this happen?" He asked.

I knew what he was asking.

"I don't know love" I whispered back running my hand through his hair, tears now threatening to fall from my eyes.

After a moment he stopped crying and pulled away from me, wiping at his eyes.

I don't think i'll ever forget his face in that moment, now etched in my brain forever.

He was heartbroken.

He sniffled again, "i'm going to bed Harry" He said quietly and looked down.

I nodded and wiped at my eyes too.

"Cmon baby let's get you to bed" I forced a small smile onto my face and we walked towards the stairs.

I put my hand on the small of his back as he walked back to his room.

When we approached his door, I knew this was it.

He stopped infront of the door and turned around looking up at me.

"Did you ever have actual feelings for me?" He whispered, tears starting to form again in his blue irises.

My lip quivered at the question and I cupped his face with my hands and leaned down as our noses touched.

"More than you will ever know little one" I whispered and kissed him gently.

He nodded solemnly and turned around slipping into his room, shutting the door behind him.

I kept myself together until I reached the bottom of the stairs and fell to my knees as tears just kept coming.

I loved him.

And now I lost him.