3 strikes

"God damn it! why do you always have to do this?!" his voice feels like fire in my ears and I have no words for it. I have no defense. he's completely right. "you think you can just go to her during the day and come home to me at night like you please? I'm sick of it Anthony." Ian's eyes burned with a fury that I've never seen. to tell you the truth, it's kind of hot. "Are you even listening to me?" he snaps me out of my daze and I look into those eyes that have made me break down many times. "Ian. I know how you're feeling. you feel upset and-" "UPSET?! I'm far from upset. I'm pissed! I'm pissed that she's gets to hold and touch you and I don't. I'm pissed that every time I'm not somewhere fun she coincidentally takes my place. I'm pissed that she gets to hold your hand and whisper sweet things to you and I don't. I'm pissed that.." he starts to breathe hard and clench his fists so tight his knuckles turn white. I can see tears begin to prickle the edges of his eyes and I just stand there. trying to gather my thoughts to counteract his words. "I'm pissed that even though I want to, I can't hate you. I can't hate someone who believed in Me when I couldn't even believe in myself. I can't hate the person who, for so long, I've been in love with. I can't hate you Anthony." my breathe is released from my throat and I begin to think maybe it's over now. maybe he's finished with his outburst. "but what I can do. is leave. I can walk out the door and never come back. she can be your day, your night, your everything. and i'll be nothing." my eyes blink fast. lose Ian? forever? I can take not talking to him for a few days but.. this time he seems serious. "unless you tell me. unless you look Me in the eye and choose right now." I can hear the hope in his voice. I look into his eyes and a tear that I didn't know I was holding falls down my cheek. "Ian.." his face falls. "Bye. buddy." before he can turn around my heart thinks before my head and I launch forward. grabbing his shirt and pulling him into a kiss I know I've never shared with kalel. speaking of her, how was I going to break it to her? she was sweet and all but when she was mad she was mad. I guess I'll deal with it another day.

OKAY. so, this is my first ianthony. well, my first fanfic ever. reviews would be good and I'm not sure if this'll be a chapter fic or not. rate and review pretty please???  

gaby