Didn't Expect

I really didn't expect that i have crush to my bestfriend, why? Because i have a boyfriend that day.

I know if sabihin ko sa bf ko na nagkagusto ako sa isang boybestfriend ko, may boyfriend he's handsome and matalino, cute, at super mabait but my bff i don't know if he's handsome and cute too HAHA. kasi di naman ako naka base sa itsura.

I like him because sa samahan namin.
I like him kahit na may bf na ako.

Ok let's start my story.

I'm grade 10 right now, i have 2 boybestfriend and 1 girlbestfriend my gbf she doesn't know about may gusto ako sa isa namin tropa, i don't want to told her that gusto ko si ano (let's call him Reyo) Reyo and Zhan and Chez and Me that's my quadro group.

We have a rules about sa pagkakaibigan namin, but haha di ako sumunod sa rules namin, guest what? That's a walang magkakagusto samin upang di masira ang pagkakaibigan namin, yah i know that but i really didn't expect na magkakagusto ako kay reyo.

My first friend is chez and second is zhan and my reyo is my last na naging kaibigan.

Parang isang libro lang ito, iumpisa natin sa page 1 naming 2, yes he's my classmate right now so katabi ko sya sa math that time and i always ask him if may naintindihan ba sya sa lesson ni sir haha he's always said is no like di naman daw sya nakikinig so yes i always told my mom na ung katabi ko ay walang kwenta tanungin at di maka kopya HAHAH so yan na nga, zhan my friend sakanya ko naging close si reyo.

So hanggang sa naging mag close na kami ni reyo and hanggang sa mas umangat pa friendship namin. But me sumobra i mean di sya totally friendship na because i like him na, yah like what the fuckkk Haha

I'm super redflag because i cheat on my bf.
So always kami magkasabay uwian and if may practice.
We're super close reyo but I'm really sorry why i love you why i continue to loving you

I create a fake account to chat him, and if i didn't edi di ko malalaman ang lahat lahat right? And also i know he's still a single and still waiting sa gf nya na ginost na sya.

So what happen?
Ok here's our convo but not all and short cut convo namin.

Secret: hi, i like you
Reyo: excuse me? Who are you?
Secret: ayoko sabihin if who i am, i'm just wanted to tell that i like you, i like you simula nung una pa
Reyo: may i know you miss? And how do you meet me?

Reyo ask that but i lie, i said that he's my ex classmate i mean he's my classmate gr9. But reyo ay pilit pa rin ito hinuhulaan kung sino nga ba ako. Reyo is loose he's give up haha. He never win to me.

Then after that

Secret: do you have a girl bestfriend?
He's said yes
And i ask him who and ilan then he's said 2 that's me and chez.
Then i ask him
Me: do you have crush on them?
He's said no but pinipilit ko pa rin sya hanggang sa umamin na.

Reyo: actually may gusto ako sa una ko bestfriend
Hey that's me haha. I'm the first haha.

Reyo: but di tumagal i think 4 days or 3 because nalaman ko na di na sya single, she's have a bf so i stop to love her.

Then i ask him that he's have a gf that time but he's have a feelings for me? Like naging redflag haha.

Another ask is

Me: if she's not a taken, what will you do?

He's said is as a bata palang and of course wala pa masyadong pera so he's said that yayain ako igala and kumain. Basta kung ano ano pa so ako naman si gaga kinilig naman.

Until magkaroon na rin daw ako ng crush sakanya, i didn't tell who i am haha.

Then i ask him again na "she's a taken pa rin do you really think that you love her again? "
Sad because he said is no.

And if ever na maging single ule ako, him feelings is never na raw babalik, haha kakasad.

He's said that if i have a feelings to him, irereject daw ako haha.
I lie again to him because nung araw na kachat ko sya is dun na sya ginost haha. Then gustong gusto nya magka girlfriend again so he ask me kung gusto ko daw ba and di kaya ng konsensya ko so ang ginawa ko is i reject him.

Yes i know what i did i know that it's wrong na magkagusto also if i have a boyfriend na so that's why pilit ko na sya iwasan but lumalapit sya saken so tell me pano ako makaka move on haha.

So ang ginawa ko ay mas nag focus nalang ako sa boyfriend ko and hinayaan nalang feelings kay boybestfriend but haha habang tumatagal na nagkakasama kami mas lumala ang feelings ko sakanya.

Hindi ko talaga to sinabi sa boyfriend ko because i know naman kung ano magiging mararamdaman nya.

I still choose him kahit na nagkaroon ako ng kasalanan sa amin relationships.

I learn what i did.

All is this not easy.

I told him that in our relationship ay walang mag sisinungaling but sa ginawa ko nag lie na.

I'm sorry to my boyfriend i know he's not deserve like me.
But ayoko sya pakawalan.

I choose you until the end of my life.
Kahit masakit, kakayanin ko pa rin.

Not easy too that magka gusto sa isang kaibigan dahil alam natin na pwede ito masira ang pagkakaibigan so that's why i choose to manahimik.

If di na kami magkikita dun nalang aamin sasakanya.

Magkaibigan lang not mag ka ibigan.

This is a real story.

End of story.