Break Free

27th Chapter

ASHLEY CARRACIO

Vacation is really taking off, it's already May! 2weeks from now, pasukan na naman. Panibagong life, panibagong stress! At panibagong adventure. Haaays! Nakapag enroll na rin kami ni Gabbie nung unang week ng May.

Gabbie is really brave, kasi nakakaya nyang makita si Gabe. And I can't even see pain in her face anymore. Hanga ako sa katatagan nya, kung ako siguro yon baka one week akong lugmok sa bahay. Umiyak talaga si Gabbie sa akin non, at naiintindihan ko naman sya. Sabi nya pa nga na bakit ganon ang ka-saklap ang first heartbreak nya.

I also talked to Rade last week, not in person pero sa phone lang. Actually I don't even understand what's on his mind. So I do the same sabi nga nila 'Pag ayaw sayo gawin mong mutual.'

Ngayon pupunta kami si Gabbie sa Park na malapit lang dito sa amin, naupo kami sa isa sa mga benches habang kumakain ng Pandesal at umiinom ng 3in1 na Kape.

"Bes, sayang walang palaman! Tsk, mas gusto ko yung cheese spread dito kaysa sa Kape e!" Reklamo ni Gabbie, ang mahal kasi nung palaman sa tindahan dito e.

"Hayaan mo na bes, parang ngayon lang e." Pahayag ko.

"Sabagay. Pero bes maiba tayo, last week I saw Ethan driving. He's with his Mom." Ngumiti lang ako kay Gabbie as my reply.

I don't even feel bitter about Ethan anymore. Siguro naka get over na talaga ako sa kanya. Ethan is not in the story anymore. Waste of time kung pakikielaman ko pa sya. And I am too Glam to give Ethan a damn.

"Bes okay ka na ba talaga? I mean hindi ka na ba talaga wasak? Yung puso mo." Pag aalala ko sa kanya.

"Yes Ash, I can handle myself. Don't worry bes. Kahit makita ko pa si Gabe araw araw. At hindi yun imposible. Hindi ba?" Sabi nya, "Lalo na at Psycho sya at ako isang Psych student. Hindi pa naman natin kailangan ng boyfriend ngayon bes. Ang kaylangan natin Diploma!"

"Sabagay tama ka naman at hindi sya worth ng tears mo no!" Sarkastiko kong sabi at saka kami nag-tawanan.

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Umuwi na kami sa sari-sarili naming mga bahay medyo mainit na rin kasi sa Park. At naka salubong ko si Makoy pero hindi manlang kami nag pansinan o ano. Yeah the feeling is so Awkward.

After kasi nung movie marathon namin sinabi nyang mahal nya pa ang ex nya. So ako naman si Tanga! Nasaktan naman ako kahit hindi ko alam kung bakit, kahit may Rade naman na ako.

Ang weird kasi ni Rade e naiinis na ako! Kaya ngayon hindi ko muna sya tine-text manigas sya kaka-hintay sa reply ko! Hm. Sabi nila ang modernong babae daw nakakayanan mag isang bumangon. Eh ako ba? Kaya ko kaya? Haaays!

Magdamag akong tumanga sa kwarto ko. Kasi naman nababagot na ako sa buhay ko. At napag isip isip ko na baliktarin na yung sitwasyon. Starting tomorrow, hindi na ako mag te-text kay Rade. At hindi ko na rin iisipin na nag e-exist pala sya sa mundong 'to.

Tama na, sobra na akong nagpapaka-tanga sa isang lalaking wala naman pala akong halaga.

**

Rade

Month's passed na hindi ako nagpa ramdam kay Ashley. I know I was wrong, alam kong nasaktan ko sya. Pero I have my reasons. Sinasanay ko lang yung sarili kong malayo sya, on the other side I was mad. Kasi bakit sa BulSU nya pa kaylangan mag aral? Pwede naman dito e sa PUP. Ayokong may iba syang maka close na lalaki.

"Rade? Anak, let's go. Baka ma-traffic pa tayo." Mom said, nasa Batangas kasi kami for our 1month vacation, "And Gabbie called me earlier that he missed you so much." Oh that girl! She just said that because she wants to confront me about Ashley.

Seriously when we reached Bulacan, I will ran to Ashley as fast as I can! I want to explain everything to her. Every detail..

It was a long ride, past 6pm na kami nakarating sa bahay. At pagod na rin ako, I texted Gabbie to say that I'm home.

To: Gabbie

"Care to visit me? I'm home. And I just want to talk to you about.. you know who she is."

Fr: Gabbie

"Fuck you."

To: Gabbie

"I know you're mad at me because I.. I don't texted Ashley for months, but you know I have my reasons and I have something to tell you. I am also asking a favor Gab."

Fr: Gabbie

"Traitor! Nambabae ka lang don ang sabihin mo. You always hurt my best friend! Hindi kita bati, don't talk to me you dimwit!"

Well I think yun na ang pinaka mahaba nyang text so far. At sobra pa syang childish..

To: Gabbie

"Look Gab, I'm really really sorry. It's not my intention to hurt Ash. You know how much I love her, right?"

Fr: Gabbie

"Shut the fuck up. Ashley is in pain right now because you mess up everything Rade. You only care about yourself. I could say you are so selfish. I hate you! I hate boys! You always broke our hearts. How dare you?!"

What a mouth. Hindi na ako nag reply kasi alam kong galit din sya sakin. At alam kong masakit pa rin para sa kanya yung ginawa ni Gabe. Kinausap ko na si Gabe tungkol don pero masyado syang tahimik.

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3 weeks ago..

Nagising ako sa sunod sunod na tunog ng phone ko. At nakita kong tumatawag si Gabe.

'Hell-o?!'

(What's up, Man?) Lasing sya. I know, tumatawag lang sya ng ganitong oras kung lasing sya.

'Bakit ka lasing? What's the problem? It's all about--'

(I love her.)

'Mahal mo? Eh bakit mo iniwan? Bakit mo sinaktan?! Gago ka nga, bro.'

(I am not worth it for her. I know she's too fragile kahit na alam kong matapang ang aura nya. Kaya ko lang naman nagawa 'yon kasi naman dude masyado na syang na fall sakin. It's just that hindi ako marunong mag stick sa isang babae. Ha ha.)

'Ts. Alam kong hindi yan ang tunay na rason mo Gabe. I'll wait for it. Good night! And oh stop drinking alcohol's, Gabbie will get mad at you.' Then I end it.

~~

Hindi ko na namalayan na kanina pa pala may kumakatok sa kwarto ko.

"Mom?"

"Masyado akong bata para tawaging Mom." She said sarcastically, oh speaking of Gabbie!!

"What?"

"Nothing. I just dropped by to gave you this." Tapos may pinakita sya sa aking Papel, "This is from Ashley. She wants to clear things right. Nababaliw na yung best friend ko dahil sayo." Tapos bigla na lang syang umalis.

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A/N:

Hi breakers! =)) sorry kung super bagal ng update. Super busy lang talaga these past few days sa school. Hm, colloge life! >:) I hope u enjoy my short update. Love lots! :*