Marry me

𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓟𝓻𝓸𝓹𝓸𝓼𝓪𝓵

"Aaron? You coming?" I'm in the kitchen fiddling with the engagement ring in my hand. Ella's in the living room calling me for a movie night, I'm not one for movies per se, but it's the only way I could isolate us without being suspicious. 

"Yes, I'll be right there." I shove the ring back into its box and into my back pocket. I walk back over to the couch where Ella is picking a movie. I grab her by the waist and pull her close.

 She kisses me, The door whips open and startles Ella, she jumps at the sound of the door and falls to the ground. I go to catch her and trip on the blanket, now I'm on the ground. She can't help but laugh at the sight of us, but I can't stop wondering if the ring had fallen out of my pocket. Before I can check someone interrupts the moment. 

"Yo! I brought snacks and-"

 "OH- OH EW, GUYS COME ON YOU CAN'T WAIT LIKE ONE MINUTE BEFORE" he gestures to a childish way of kissing.

Ella gets up from the ground and hugs Kenji. "Like for real guys, I come over to watch a movie and you guys are making out on the floor-" Ella slaps him on the shoulder. 

"Oh shush, and we didn't make out." Kenji rolls his eyes and sits on the couch.

 "Wait, you didn't make out on the couch right?" We both look back at each other and then at Kenji, he looks like a horrified child walking in on their parents. Ella sits down, I nod Kenji to the next room to talk. 

"If you're going to tell me to stop talking about your little make-out sesh you guys need to-"

 "I'm going to ask her to marry me." Kenji is completely stunned. His eyes wide open, he hugs me and I let him. For once let this loud, obnoxious, idiot hug me. 

"AARON THATS LIKE THE BEST NEWS I'VE HEARD ALL DAY OH MY GO-" He twirls around and starts doing the popular "Mow The Lawn" dance.

 "Kenji, will you shush? I need you to do something for me." 

"Okay, first of all, I wasn't done but.. what?"

 "I don't really enjoy music and have no musical preferences, and I would appreciate you playing some while I propose. It needs to be romantic and slow, not too fast, I know you like rambunct-"

 "Bro, how do you not like music- whatever I got this okay? I'm the king of romance." I hate that this is the man I have to resort to when it comes to romantic gestures. 

"Wait- what if she says no? What if she shoots me again-"

"Will you shut up? Dude, she's in love with you. All she ever talks about is you, like seriously It's constantly you bro. I'm actually getting really sick of it."

 I shoot him a look and try not to laugh. Despite what I make it out to be he does actually entertain me sometimes. I pat his shoulder hesitantly. I'm not one for physical touch, Mainly because I don't understand it. Apes didn't hug or pat each other, Ella told me I have the opinions of a 70-year-old man. I don't hate that actually.

"I'll go set the mood." He overly exaggerates a wink and walks away, I can feel my eyes rolling. I try to breathe but it's labored. I've had several panic attacks but this... Feels worse. More, Painful. I hit my chest where my heart rests, which settles it slightly. Kenji's putting on music and distracting Ella from looking my way, I sneak away to the bathroom to change into a suit. 

I hear Ella trying to make sense of the situation, making jokes about his musical choices. And something about Kenji crying? I finally get everything on and am waiting for my cue when I glance at my hands. I'm shaking, it's much more violent than my regular attacks. I will not allow myself to ruin this moment, I finally hear Kenji's cue for me.

"Oh, lover boy? It's timee!"

 I roll my eyes and step out the door, I see Ella surprised but still unknowing. I assume she just thinks I'm showing off a new suit or something. 

"Oh Aaron, you look great! Is it a new-"  I walk over to her and grab her hand and waist, I'm not much of a dancer but I start swaying us back and forth. Her eyes are confused and scared, but not in a bad way. It's more as if she knows what's about to happen, but won't accept the outcome. She grips my hand tighter

"What's going on?"

"Shh." I look down and her eyes are starting to well, I hope It's because she saw Kenji put on engagement music accidentally and not because she's going to reject me.

"Aaron? Please what's happening."  I give her a twirl then I finally let go, I look at Kenji one last time before dropping on my knee. He's sobbing, I expected some sort of tears but not this. 

"Ella? Will you-" Something in me explodes, I feel my heart burst and all my blood shoot through me. I can't move, I hear vauge screams and yells around me. It goes black.