Ich Liebe Dich, Lena ~ pt 2

☆ Thirty-Three ☆

He took me to KFC. I had been craving chicken for a while and he knew that. We got one of those massive bucket meals and just sat in the car and ate it.

"Do you think it's a smart idea for you to be eating this when you've just gotten back to racing? your trainer will be so pissed if he knows that we're stuffing our faces with KFC right now" I said.

"I think we deserve a treat after everything we've been through, don't you?" He said.

"I guess..." I said. I looked at my phone and had a text from my therapist that I have another session in a few days. I was dreading it.

"Don't worry, babe. We'll get through this. Together" he said. I nodded and kept eating. "We really have got a good life, haven't we?" He said.

"Yeah... it's the best. I just wish I wasn't depressed for so much of it"

"I know, sweetheart. But remember, we're working on it together. And even when the darkness seems overwhelming, there's always light waiting for us around the corner. Just hold on tight to that hope and don't forget how much I love you"

"I know but I just can't ever convince my brain that that's the case..."

"It's not about convincing your brain, Lena. It's about feeling it in your heart. And I promise you, every beat of my heart echoes the love and support I have for you. Just trust in that. We'll find a way through this together, beautiful"

"That's the problem. my brain is fully controlling my heart. my brain has taken over literally every part of me"

"Well, then we'll just have to work extra hard on making your heart stronger, my love. We'll find ways to nurture it, to fill it with joy and happiness"

"I wish I could be this fucking open in therapy... I can't even say a word there but I can say thousands to you"

"Just know that you can always talk to me, no matter what. And even if you can't find the words right away, I'll be here, waiting for you. That's a promise I'll always keep"

"I knew I was making the right choice when I spent every euro I had so I could go to the meet and greet you were doing. it may have made me bankrupt at the time but then I met the love of my life"

"Aw, you're too sweet, Lena. I'm glad you did. And I'm even happier that we found each other" he said. He found me even sweeter when he found out I was gonna take him down to Somerset to see his parents.

"you know... you've been driving all day. Maybe I should drive so you can take a bit of a break? I promise I'm not gonna crash your McLaren" I said

"You're right, Lena. It's been a long day. I would appreciate the break. I trust you with my baby. Drive safe, love" he said while giving me the keys. I think he started to catch on when he realised that I put our bags in the back. Well, the really small back that he got with his customised McLaren. He definitely catched on when he saw the sign on the M5 for Somerset. "No you're not...!!! Lena!!! Are we really???!!" He said with basically tears filling his eyes with excitement.

"We are, baby. Your parents are finally gonna meet little Mira" I said. I'm pretty sure Lando nearly cried. He hadn't seen his parents since our wedding and he was definitely missing them. Adam & Cisca already knew that I was coming with Lando so they left the door unlocked. When we got there Lando instantly took Mirabella out of her car seat and held her in one arm and held Daxie in the other and he went running into the house while I was left to take the bags inside. It was fine though because he was happy. He deserved to have this time with my parents. He earned it after dealing with all my problems. I took the bags in and I saw Cisca holding Mirabella. It was literally the sweetest ever but it was also the best opportunity to get revenge for that one time Adam & Cisca were meant to be looking after our nieces Mila & Athena. We deserved some alone time. I stood next to Lando and whispered to him. "You know what this means?" I said.

"What's that, love?" He said.

"We can have some fun together. I'm thinking we recreate that time we fucked on the beach" I said. I could already see his smirk. We ran straight out of the house and got in the car. It took ages to get to the beach but we finally did and we were so ready for each other. It had literally been ages. We were finally going to have some fun.