This story is dedicated for my first wlw rs. Even if it's hard to say, I was mesmerized by you. Remember our laughter over silly things? We felt unstoppable in ours. Even if others don't understand and not getting us, our bond remains strong once in...
Late at night, I often ponder what love truly feels like. I pray for the chance to meet a girl, maybe one with charming glasses, whose presence makes me feel even more loved. All I really want is to be treated with kindness and respect, and to feel cherished in return.
But then, I found a lesson in you...
August 15, "time check! 5:30AM😭" I woke up with a knot in my stomach, realizing I was now a high school student. Anxiety flooded in as I thought about meeting new people, something I've always dreaded. Like ugh.. I really hated this kind of situation all of my life.
"Arghhhh mag ha-highschool na pala ako at 'yan na naman, new friends, new knives. Sigurado ako, walang maganda rito na naka-eyeglasses and ofc chinita" napairap ako sa sarili ko. "Teka, 'di ako babaero ha."
I hurriedly cleaned my room and took a bath, all the while my parents questioned my choice between SPA or SHS. "SPA," I replied, "because I want to pursue art talaga, ma."
As I kept going to the bathroom, I had doubts that maybe I wouldn't be appealing to them nevermind. But, "What if... I wish there could be a scene there like in a KDrama, where there's love at first sight na mangyayari kahit saglit sa buhay ko, maranasan ko lang" I said while looking at myself in the mirror cutely smirked.
I spent the next few hours getting ready, and then I arrived at my new school. I asked my mom, "ma, are my new classmates here ba? I'm getting nervous slightly, more energy huhu"
Pinapunta na'ko ni mama sa room ko at saad n'ya na rin.
"sige na nga, strong independent woman naman ako" I responded as if nothing had happened and continued walking through the hallway of my room. As I stepped into the doorway, I noticed someone cleaning the books in the Elibu Library.
I got so lost in thought that I lost my cool. My adviser was there, and I said, 'Sorry, ma'am. Good morning.' She reassured me, "No need to be shy, good morning too. These are your classmates, and you'll have great chats with them they're fun."
"What's your name?"
"No-novem ma-ma'am, Pr- Novem p-po"
I was awkwardly saying my first name, feeling embarrassed on the first day. I couldn't help but notice and someone whose presence made me feel like, "This is a bad idea, right? No, not again"
"guys, this is Novem, your classmate. Novem, meet Cyrus, Gayle, and..." "Alexah," she interrupted. I was so out of it, completely focused on her captivating, sparkling eyes, that I just kept nodding and saying 'yes' while my teacher said a lot of things. Our adviser said she would just leave me here with them.
"tang- 'wag ganda p're, morena na marikit jusko ho, ay sorry bad pala" Parang kinikilig ako sa sarili kong anino, like, 'di ko rin alam kung bakit, pero madalas may mga iniisip na bigla na lang pumapasok sa isip ko kundi s'ya kaagad? "Ganda, pretty obviously 'di ako babaero at no, no, no, I'm not into Niña anymore 'cause she just laughed when my feelings were valid, with her friends that I actually considered as my friends also, and I found out she already has a new boyfriend again. Yung biggest what if ko nung una, naging sila and ofc, I have no karapatan and she's just my happy crush na pet peeve ko na ngayon. Siniraan ba naman ako.
Anyways, they turned out to be fun pala, I was worried I'd be shy on the first day meeting new people. I was hanging out with everyone, and when I mentioned I'm bi but deep inside only into girls, Cyrus made me feel so welcome. It's weird, I used to worry I might be a problem, but I know I'm not a player or womanizer tho once I'm here, I'm here to stay with my future gf and my only wife. My father genes treats a woman right and im also a woman. It's really bad who pursues romantic or sexual relationships with multiple women without serious intentions especially the boys right now in this fcking generation but not all men.
Later, while we were cleaning up, I just accidentally caught Alexah looking at me in the near corner of the elibu. As if im just an assuming. Oh bro I'm overreacting, not right now please, I'm trying to stay and I made a promise to myself to stay focused on my studies and not get tangled up in romance, but I couldn't help feeling a bit flustered when I accidentally blurted out something silly to her. It was embarrassing!
I found myself gazing into her captivating eyes, and it felt like my heart was both slowing down and racing at the same time, almost hurting. It's strange because I've only just met her, and I know I shouldn't develop feelings so quickly. Maybe it's just that I find her attractive, but my heart and mind seem to be reacting in sync, and it's a confusing situation at the same time.
Hey, I'm done cleaning by the corner guyses! Should I head out now? Or do you need any help? You're alexaurs, right?"
"H-ha? Yep, Alexah," she replied. My heart started beating in sync with my thoughts again, just from her simple glance and conversation.
"Uhm, Can I borrow the broom?" I tried to make a light, unserious flirt, not sure how to start a conversation. She handed me the broom, our hands briefly touching, and it felt calming, like a spark flies in the background. My favorite song, "yk" by Cean Jr, started playin'. It's a cool R&B track that perfectly captures the feelings of falling in love unexpectedly and wanting to be with someone special, even if it's just for a night. The music is smooth, with Cean Jr.'s calming voice and catchy guitar tunes in the background. [DropBeats] tsg..tsg..tsg
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It's chill yet passionate because of its romantic lyrics. Plus, it brings me calm whenever our eyes meet by chance. It's like when I first met you, I unexpectedly fell into your eyes coded. Nvm.
Well, Everyone in the room was laughing and we introduced ourselves one by one. They were so much fun, like, I wish they could be my best friends. I'll just not include the small interactions between us in this first chapter, as I don't remember the others.
So, everybody left the room, and it gave me butterflies in my stomach when I met them, especially her.
The next few months, my mind was stuck, and I couldn't stop thinking about that one morena girl. I often find myself wanting to look for her everywhere. Oh bro am I goin' crazy here? I always end up drawing that one girl, and the first drawing I made of her is still in my art room.
August 29: Are we really supposed to wear Filipiniana? I was so excited to wear my uniform. Sa sobrang gaslight nang gaslight sa sarili ko, ewan.
A few hours later, it was time that everyone was getting ready for the flag ceremony. Then, a girl with glasses caught my attention. I thought she was the girl I met during Brigada, but she wasn't, her name was Veronica. Yet, there she was, wearing a purple Filipiniana. I couldn't help but think, "Oh, Kay gandang binibini, I've been waiting for you for so long." My inner AP History enthusiast, with a penchant for old-fashioned courtship, wants to tease me from her.
It was raining at that time, and some people were laughing out loud because some students slipped and slid through muddy holes. It was both funny and sad for them, but it turned into a great memory.
"Come here for the flag ceremony", the announcer called out.
On the first day I met Grace, she was the first person I told that Alexah is so captivating. "Aren't they beautiful? Mas maganda si Veronica," sambit ng isang naming classmate. "Grace, do you see her? Do you know her? The one with eyeglasses," I asked. "malamang nakita ko, ha? Asa man? That one? Oh, Alexah, yes, we're schoolmates," she replied. "ganda nila, and I feel like a potato," "niregla ba naman tayo ng sabay beh" said one of my cm. "You guys are so loud, she's the only beautiful one, okay? S'ya lang maganda kahit mabasa sa ulan at baliko napkin n'yo" I was so out of it, hoping no one would realize I'm gae.
