Infinitessimaly closer. || Woosan

When The Rope Post 2 Breaks

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"San-ah!" Wooyoung calls him.

San opens a bleary eye, the room still dark. He doesn't see much, but he feels the way Wooyoung's draped over his body, lithe muscles and supple skin burning into his side.

"What is it, baby?" he asks, and Wooyoung noses into his neck, humming.

"You're warm." His hand flexes against San's stomach, and the feeling of it sends shivers down San's spine. His friend licks his lips and falls back asleep, the slow rhythm of his breathing lulling San into a half-sleep.

"Young-ah," he calls, and Wooyoung distantly hums, drifting in and out of sleep.

"Love you," San murmurs.Wooyoung doesn't reply, snoring a little and pressing closer.

San doesn't need him to.

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He remembers Felix as they greet his sister's guests. They're all coming to his parents' house the day before the wedding. Wooyoung's glued to his side, a hand around his hip as San tries to remember who's who: who's a family friend and who's from Chan's side.

He remembers Felix while feeling queasy about the fact that he has to play this game of pretending to be in a stable relationship with the best friend he's ever had, with the closest friend he's ever fallen in love with.

Felix was perfect: handsome, charming, attentive. He was Wooyoung's longest relationship, long enough Felix would hang out at their place and do movie marathons together, would spend weekends at their place. He was nice enough to accept San into his life, and gracious enough to only scowl at him whenever San took too much care of his boyfriend.

San thinks Felix knew.

He feels like the entire world knows just from seeing him.

After a while, Felix stopped coming, and Wooyoung evaded the question, only saying, "It was for the best".

He can only think about Felix when yet another lady pinches his cheek and says, "Quite a catch you've got there, don't let him go!" after Wooyoung's charmed them.

"How am I doing?" Wooyoung murmurs into San's ear, and San suppresses a shiver, puts on a smile as he leans into Wooyoung and says, "I hope you haven't forgotten our wood anniversary."

Wooyoung grins, happy to continue this wedding skit, his smile going from private to blinding as he greets a middle-aged couple.

San wonders why it didn't work out with Felix.

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It's nice spending time together; his parents, Haneul, Wooyoung and him. One last evening before she's married and moves onto a new chapter of her life. Wooyoung's cradled against San's side as she talks about maternity hopes. Their parents are delighted, and San only tells the truth when he tells her he thinks they'll be wonderful parents.

They talk, sharling anecdotes about their lives, because, all in all, they've been living apart for so long now.

San isn't very talkative, still mulling over the muddiness of his feelings, the disappointment of his heart, but Wooyoung talks for the both of them. He has stories upon stories of San being sleepy and goofy, of their last trip together and the short one they're doing after the wedding. He tells them how good San is to him despite Wooyoung being a pain in the ass. San protests at that, and his parents laugh.

They don't have to play pretend for them to think something exists between them, and the discrepancy between their perception and the reality of their lives makes him turn sour, bile at the back of his throat.