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With foremost suddenness and suprisement the movement which i caused due to this brought our faces even closer.
As his drunken self got over himself, wooyoung didnt let go of this chance and took it as an oppurtunity and kissed me.
This action caught me off guard.
Nonetheless, being honest, this was sloapy. He tasted so bitter and i couldnt control it anymore. not realising the fact that this should be shocking but instead i am thinking about how it was.
I pushed him tilting my head in confusion.
I shouldnt have reacted like this. Being like this only will lead to more troubles and tragedy in our upcoming part of our life. It shouldnt be only about comfort and happiness but instead reality.
If we were normal people like others doing no sorts of illegal things like this, i might have given it a thought.
Considering both of our feelings now isnt a matter. Later, if we get hurt its our own ptoblem that we got this into ourselves. Consequences shouldnt be ignored and therefore, taking in consideration about our safety, its best to ignore this.
Its better if he does not remember it.
With the feeling of nervousness about the next morning, i closed the door of the car as i sat in the front seat to drive this situation through.
We entered our house with me dragging him in. I tiredly let go of him when we neared the couch.
I looked at him processing all that happened just some minutes ago.
His actions and all these thoughts made me fall into a sub space.
(𝘕𝘰𝘵𝘦 : the word sub space does not mean 'baby space' or 'little space'. It is an indirect metaphor used for denoting the sorrowness/worry or thoughts revolving around his peace of mind for this situation brought in.)
I simply just sat right beside him in the couch and made him lean on me. Despite the confusion about the scenario, he is still the most important to me than anything else.
Whenever i was down, even i wouldnt clearly know that i am going through some shits. But he acknowledges my feelings and emotions just by looking at me which makes me realise how much i mean to him.
With a sense of gratefulness revolving around me, i stood up getting him up too. And now i was determined to not let my feelings get into me.
My feelings can be a part of me. But if it spreads throughout, then i am sure there is more waiting for us in this journey.
