Every little thing I do reminds me of you
I can't wake up
without remembering your eyes
still dusted with sleep
as your lashes first open to catch the days first rays
I can't eat
without remembering your favorite snacks
chocolate pretzels, frozen grapes, cinnamon apples
how you wouldn't share with anyone
except me
I can't see anyone's face
without comparing it to your own
without seeing a little of you in them
your blue flecked eyes, your thin lips
that mole just along your jaw line
I can't be alone
without hearing your voice
deep and soothing
playing over and over in my head
I don't know what do
without you to spend my time with
I am no one
without you to fill my days with life
I am nothing
nothing
I strayed from you
broke our unspoken promise and
you couldn't forgive me
For that one wretched long minute
I lost myself to someone else and
you can't forgive me
how can one trice in time
determine the rest of my life
it's too unreal
I've spent hours upon hours
contemplating the words to say to you
but no combination
of twenty-six different letters
could ever accurately capture even a sliver
of what this feeling is like
