"1,2,3,4...1,2,3,4...Come on guys...Keep up...Renjun look a little alive, okay...Guys you have to perfect this...From the top...1,2,3..."
This is what I've been hearing for the past 3 hours.Nonstop dancing.Nonstop singing.Nonstop.Nonstop.Nonstop.
Well hello whoever is reading here.I'm Huang Renjun.Nothing special about me.Just that I'm part of one of the biggest kpop groups in the world...NCT...DREAM to be exact but whatever.
Currently we are busy practicing for the NCT 2024 Comeback and our choreographer has been punishing us for the past few hours...AGGGH
"Yah, Renjunnie..What are you day dreaming about.Practice ended a few minutes ago.We can go home"...came the words from one of my bestfriends, Jeamin.
"Ok but I'm gonna spend some more time practicing.I wanna perfect that one move.I'll meet you back at the dorm"...I answered.
"Ok..see you then"...and he was gone.
Waiting until all the members left I packed my stuff.I know I just told Jeamin that I was going to practice but I actually had other ideas.Ideas I can't share with the others.
Using the back exit of the building I walked through the dark alleyway.I've used this alleyway a few times to know that here's nothing that will put me in danger...or maybe it's because those lurking here know me...They are also the only ones who know about my secret.
Arriving at my destination I looked at my surroundings trying to find HIM.
"Renjun-ssi..Fancy seeing you here.How have you been"...a large figure let out behind me.
"Oh come on Taeyang...Just give me what I came for and stop trying to make small talk."
"Wow ok...A little feisty today I see..Well lucky for you I decided to give you the best in the house.I'll be waiting for my payment" he said while handing over the package.
After receiving what I looked for I headed to a secluded area hidden from public eye as well as cameras.I found an old bench and sat on it.
Opening the package, I took out a smaller package containing the white powder.I swiped a little on my finger and sniffed the dust.
And I felt how it went through my veins...And I must say..it felt fucking amazing.
You might be wondering how I happend to be abusing drugs...Well it's my only escape.Escape from my problems.Escape from reality.Escape from life.
Using this is my happy place.
And...I will die before any of the NCT members finds out...
No one knows this but I struggle..Mentally.
And using this is the only way I can stop hearing the voice in my head.The voice that has been tormenting my whole being.The voice that leads to me self-hurting.
But coke just makes it go away...
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Still feeling high as fuck I walked home.It was past 2 in the morning so I knew no one will be awake.Gives me a great opportunity to sneak in like I do every night.
Stopping infront of the dorm I made sure to check if there wasn't any lights on.Seeing no light coming out of the rooms I softly opened my window..I always make sure that I never fully close my window seen as I always have to sneak in.
Being relieved that I don't see any of my members sleeping in my bed, I crept under the blankets and let myself be taken to dreamland.
Maybe tomorrow will be an easier day...
I know my writing sucks and that it's short but plz leave any comments.
See u in the next chapter...💋
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