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"Communication is key"

"People who isolate themselves especially those who don't talk will have no future"

-My grandmother and aunt

Both are hypocrites

They talk about communication but when I'm falsely blamed for something and I try to prove my point and innocence my grandmother accuse me of talking back while my aunt always finds a way to keep the blame on me, listening or not my reason gets pushed out their other ear and they ask why I don't talk to them?

But I guess my aunt was right about people having no future when they isolate themselves and don't talk, having seen it in her in person.

'A metal stick fell of my head! Why did you put it there mother?! Knowing it will fall, you still had it be put there! Now I'm hurt!"

She got in one of her moods and locked herself in her room and didn't talk to my grandmother for weeks

"It was long day at work, can I vent to you mother?"

My grandmother waited hours for her to come home from work to personally open the gate for her and preserved her a meal and then my aunt vented and talked shit about her boss and people she didn't like and when my grandmother, who listened and comforted her, asked a question not relating to their topic she got mad and told her how my grandmother didn't even ask how her day was and just because of that one question that's not even worth getting mad over my grandmother who was nothing but supportive of her, my aunt decided she doesn't want my grandmother as her mother anymore. And now she's in her room not talking to my grandmother and being a spoiled brat about it while being 30 who has no permanent job, no money, no husband and is eating the food my mother's money bought.

What a great example of 'communication is key' when my aunt doesn't even talk to my grandmother when she's in a bad mood that does not what so ever have a connection to my grandmother because she just felt like being mad.

"Oh but your grandmother sounds nice, maybe you are really to blame."

She's a religious person but somehow she loves hurting everyone, innocent animals that act like what they were made for, grandchildren who was doing literally nothing, her own children? She gets mad when she spends all of the money my mom gives her cause in my mother's words she doesn't know how to budget while she's half correct she's also half wrong, this isn't all my grandmother's fault it's also due to school and our trash of a country's inflation.

"But many people who are less fortunately manage to live a better life than you with not even half of the money your mother's sends"

Yeah because they don't need freaking wi-fi and ac but my family does, wi-fi now has become a necessity in our household and is used everyday and not just for entertainment but for jobs and school and now in the Philippines that's literally being personally fried by the sun the ac is now used daily to not die from heat and if we have that we have to pay for it as well as the other things installed in our house. So there is no room for argument because Philippines as itself just sucks and supporting this kind of lifestyle, the money my mother sends isn't enough.

But sending more money doesn't solve her anger issues, if I get blamed for a wrong doing a didn't commit especially if it's so little there is no room for arguments because I am expected to lower my head and accept whatever nasty words they have to say to me. Communication is key they say but I'm not allowed to say "I took a sashay but didn't do anything to the box" because in my grandmother's words "Then how did the box end up down there? Did the cat do that?"

"How would we know what you want or what you're thinking if you don't speak to us?

How would you know I didn't do that if you don't want yo hear what I have to say?

Even innocent animals are no exception to her cruelty, nobody in our family is but when her children all point out her mistakes, she gets mad then later cries and plays the victim.

"Why are you isolating yourself around us, your family, when we do nothing but support you?"

If spiting insults after insults after one mistake is supportive then I'd rather talk about my feeling to literal stranger

"You won't have a future if you don't talk"

Great talk about my future when you're unemployed, broke, lives with her mom, eats the food that was bought by the money my mom gives, oh and aren't you an expressive little sunshine?

"Why are you so different when you're with your friends and when you're with your family"

Because unlike my "family" they're not toxic and insult me because I said I'm using my charger and won't hit me because of something I didn't do.

It's you who failed as my guardian.

I am expressive, I express myself, I express my opinions even when it's wrong, it's your fault for relying on out dated ways to raise me leading to this toxic family.

"Oh but what about their side of the story? Surely since you're just a kid and their adults you're actually to be blamed."

That sounded like my mother. But I'm not sure after all I'm just the lazy disappointment of the family who doesn't listen.

I published this with the purpose of letting out my anger through words and letters not action because I'm not like my family.