Do You Think I Have Forgotten

BADLY

When Moody visited Josie at the Queens’ dormitory. Is that to say goodbye, and make things right, he thought. Realizes that he really can’t be with her, as long as his heart are still belongs to someone else he loved.

After 2 weeks, he revisited them. And to see Ruby. The main reason.

He wants to talk to her badly. He wishes to Ruby if they could. At first, Ruby was hesitant to consider that. But then the girls said, follow what she thinks it’s right to do. Especially it’s fine for Josie, she said, they’re the ones whose really made for each other, she guess. And there is no hard feelings between the two long time friends.

*****

Awkward and anxious, Moody are. Awkward but she does not want to be obvious, Ruby are. They’re at the garden, walking together but not so close

“Remember the day when... I wrote to you?”

”When you broke my heart?”

They stop, facing each other, each eyes are flickering, so many thoughts, maybe, so questions that longing for answers

“You know that.. Just... I do not want you to be hurt.”

“Isn’t that intended for me to be hurt?”

“Of course NOT. And you know... That.” Moody insisted

“I guess I didn’t, nor I don’t understand. I DON’T EVER understand you, us. We’re-” She paused “Suppose to be one. To love... to CHERISH EACH OTHER so, why... Did you have to do - hurting me?”

“I was in military.”

Ruby didn’t expect that confession base on her face, being surprise

“You really...”

“We talked about that, but you refused to listen, and said do whatever I want to be. Without us-"

“So, you chose your dream over me.”

Moody frowned, unbelievably “You can’t actually made me choose between my dreams and you. If you really love me. Do you?”

“Long time ago.” She looked away

“Really. Don’t ever, please... Said that I chose my dreams over you. You have yours too,” She look back at him. “you should understand”

“Let’s stop talking, besides. It makes no sense. I have to-”

“I’m here because I much love you.”

That make her feel the need to look at him again when she suppose to walk away. In the eye. The longing... Care... endless affection that she sees in his eyes.

*No. Don’t. Don’t do this to me.* Ruby’s thoughts.

That she doesn’t want him to see the same in her eyes.