oh man.
I really thought it'd only get better and better.
But here I am, literally this close to ugly crying.
I thought I was through this shit, but here I am again.
My panic attacks came back.
I am totally aware of the fact, that you'll never be fully healed. Your anxiety can always come back, as I already said it myself to so many people.
Still I thought: I got through this, because of so many weeks, so many days that were fully light, I didn't feel a single sign of anxiety.
Now, for almost twentyfour hours it hits me, again and again.
I'm restless, my heart feels like killing me, I just want it to stop.
Please, dear god, make it stop.
Because I don't know if I have the strength to get through this again
