euphoria; The Next Chapter

Our Imaginations

RUE

Back again huh? Couldn't stay away from this 'So Called Life' Experience or did you just come to check that I haven't dropped dead. Well you'd be happy to know, yes, I am alive and well. I mean, that's what Ali has been putting it as. I still can't imagine how he forgave me for what I said to him, Ali has a good heart. NOW, the grade A question you are all wondering.... yes. I am clean.

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Setting: Rue's House.

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"Hey Rue" Lexi said with a pause in between, waiting for me to respond as if she needed permission to say something.

"What's up?"

"Have you been clean? I'm sorry I know you've been going to your meetings. just, you have to understand, it's uneasy you know... from the past. I don't mean to upset..."

"Lex" I said and grabbed her arm since she was waving both of them around like crazy just to explain one thing. "Relax. I am okay. Really, for the first time in a while I am sober, happier than ever"

She looked at me strangely as if she didn't know.

"Depressed?"

"I mean come on Lex, those years have gotta do something to my head, right?" I said and she shrugged.

"I gotta get back, it's annoying. Ever since Cassie's whole thing with Nate last year I always have to be home much earlier than before" said Lexi as she got up and grabbed her small brown leather bag which topped off her outfit for the day.

"Yeah well, I kinda get the whole thing changing because last year was a complete and utter mess. Heads bashed in, heads thrown, people being pushed and my favourite of all, the bitch fit fight which damn, that really caused some shit. Anyway, I'll see you at school tomorrow" I somewhat jumped up when I meant to only push myself up off the bed. I started to panic, the thoughts going through my brain again.

OMG what if she thinks I'm trying to get her to leave quickly so I can do drugs or that I don't want her here because I don't like her. What if she thinks something else now and I can't think of it.

Yeah, that happened alot. I had what the doctors kindly diagnosed me with which was Drug Induced Pycosis. Although I had told them that I have had this since before drugs, that didn't matter.

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"Are you okay Rue?..." Lexi asked shyly.

"Yeaaaaah, just you know, new life new beginning shit".

I think that time I used to much hand exclamations...

"I'll text you okay?" Lexi said as she walked to the door to leave. "Just be safe, you have alot of people that love you Rue"

I can't even count how many times people have said that to me on my hands.... I think it's a go to thing to say when you don't know what to say.

"Yeah I love you guys too. I'll see you at school tomorrow"

And she left. So, now it's the catch up from what happened last year.

Maddy and Cassie, boy did I start some shit with them. I mean, if I hadn't have said anything that night to get away then there is a slight chance that Maddy wouldn't have found out but the 3 people being involved in that situation and the people around it, I doubt it. Maddy has not forgiven Cassie. Whenever she sees her, she looks her dead straight in the eye like she would stab her at any second but of course she wouldn't because well, theres an explanation for that somewhere. Although there could be some situations that could change that comment. Meanwhile, Cassie is still in love with Nate and thinking they're going to live happily ever after.
After the play, Nate and Cassie had broken up because of the whole dance number which was fucking awesome, might I add but just like Nate and Maddy, they we're back together within a few days.
See, there was one thing I was absolutely sure of... Nate and Cassie were meant for each other. They just seemed... perfect. But who knows.
Jules and I are in a difficult-place-i-guuuuuessssss? I wanted her in my life still but last year... I couldn't figure out if it was me not being able to forgive myself or her. My Mom and Gia, I didn't realise how much they have done for me after I left rehab. I didnt acknowledge how they both put their lives on hold at different moments and also the emotional baggage I put on them.

I'm sure you want to know this one, Fez... well if you're wondering, you and me both guys.

Text from Lexi ♡
Hey Rue, can you do me a favour... can you find out more about Fez? If it's to much to ask then it's okay but, I would love to see him and know he's okay.

That's one thing I'm also sure about, Fez is definitely not O-K.