𝙵𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍 𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎

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𝙵𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍 𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎

"How am I supposed to do this, Mom?"
"We'll get through this together." she says.

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I've known for a week that I'm pregnant and for a week I've just been lying in my bed, only going to the toilet when I have to pee or throw up. My mom brings the food up to my room, my brothers come into the room every now and then, except Tom, who refused, I could hear him saying that he didn't want to come in.
That's okay, I think it's my fault for getting involved with an older man again, even if I thought that older man was different.
April has been bombarding me with messages since I told her on the phone that I was pregnant and that if she saw Hayden, she shouldn't tell him. I have to do this alone, he has to find out from me.
"Hey love, are you sure you want to do this?" Mom asks, watching me pack just a small bag.
I nod. "He needs to hear from me Mom. And I'd rather do it in person, I'll be back here in London tonight."
Hayden hasn't answered my calls or messages, so I have to fly to Canada myself, even though I feel a little uneasy because I know that a person is growing inside me.
Mom drops me off at the airport and as I fly I'm worried about how Hayden will react when he finds out I'm pregnant.
Will he want the baby? What will happen between us once the baby is born?
I thank the taxi driver and ask him to wait here. I nervously knock on the front door, I wait a few seconds and the door opens and Hayden is standing there wearing only sweatpants.
I'm about to say something when I hear: "Who's at the door, Hay?"
Rachel stands behind Hayden with just a blanket wrapped around her body, I look back and forth between the two of them, tears streaming from my eyes.
"I... I..." My voice fails, I turn around, but a hand stops me from leaving.
,,Is everything ok?" His voice sounds worried.
,,If everything is OK? Hayden, we haven't been together for three weeks and you're sleeping with your ex. You have no idea what's happening to me." I wipe my eyes angrily, he tries to grab my arm again, but I slap it away.
Rachel looks at the spectacle happening in front of her with a small smile, even though it's childish, I give her the middle finger and so does Hayden.
I get into the taxi and give April's address to the driver, who immediately hugs me as she opens the front door.
,,What should I do?" I finally ask after telling her that I met Hayden and Rachel.
"Oh, sweetie." She takes me in her arms. "You'll be a great mother, with or without Hayden."
I pull away from the hug. "Oh God, I didn't even tell him I was pregnant." Now I'm crying even harder.
,,As well as? You were hurt and shocked and you saw that he was with his ex and we both know that they had sex." she says and it's true.
The two looked like they were having sex. I could see a hickey on Rachel's neck and suddenly I wonder if she cheated on her boyfriend. The front door opens. April wants to get up but then Isaiah calls out: "Babe, get naked and get out there." He stops and his cheeks redden a little, April doesn't look at me and suddenly I have to laugh.
April looks at me like I'm crazy but she laughs with Isaisah still standing there with red cheeks but then his face goes from embarrassed to worried.
He sits down next to me and even though we don't know each other well yet, he takes me in his arms and says: "No matter what's going on. Everything will be fine." And when he said that, I cried again.
"Are you sure you want to fly back home?" April asks me for the tenth time.

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