I kinda wanted to vent idk, but the friend I made on here around 8-9 years ago isnt my friend anymore. Hasn't been for months, but I think about her. We met, called everyday and considered each other as siblings, I got to see her graduate! And she cheered me on passing highschool so she could come to my graduation. I used to pretend to be mute because I was shy/cautious since she was an online friend. It was stupid lol. Even our parents got to know about each other and our families knew who we were by saying 'oh your talking/hanging out with *****'. My cats would even recognize theid voice and her cat would recognize mine. We'd talk to our friends about each other since we were besties. We Made OC's together and stayed up late in the night doing Rps as what we made up together. We shared art we did of our favorite characters or our Ocs and we'd cherish and love what we drew each other. We even played video games together. She got me into so many amazing games and I got her into some fun games as well! We loved each other like siblings.
I just wonder how things could have gone differently. If we didn't have as much fights or if we actually tried to talk we would still be friends? Does she think of me like I think of her? Do I miss her? We were both toxic and stopped communicating properly, but we always said we'd get through it since we fought like siblings. We always forgave each other and tried to better ourselves the best we could and would remind each other if we got to be to much. Or if we needed a while to cool off. We always used to talk it out and forgive each other like nothing happened. Would we still even be friends if things went differently? Or would we still drift apart. Im glad you were in my life, but sometimes I still wish you were still in it to begin with, but at the same time I'm glad we split apart. It gives us new experiences I guess...idk thats what my mom said, but still. I just wonder if they would still think of me like I do to them. I just wish things could have ended differently. Idk this sounds stupid, but I've been wanting to get it off my chest. I might have overshared, but idk whatever happens happens now. And no Im not sharing their name for privacy reasons. -Ali
