The Silent Lotus

Simple days

I remember the days long before. My quirk came in. The days when I could smile and my dad would take me and izuku to the park. Before lines upon lines laid across my wrists and before I had to hide.  I remember running through the fields of flowers in the  meadow near my grandmothers house. I remember playing with Bakugo no matter how much I wanted to avoid it. But those days were gone now and here we were the Midorya twins. A quirkless freak and A villain. Of course we'd never tell mom about the bullying or anything. she had enough to worry about trying to make it work since our dad had left.

Perhaps I owe you a brief intro if you end up reading this Diary.

My name is Kayn Midorya I'm 14 years old and in my last year at Aladrea middle school.
My quirk is I called Techno Possession. Simply by speaking to an electronic object I take control of it.

I have a twin brother who's quirkless named Izuku and a wonderful mom named inko. I guess my life is good.  Sometimes.

My boyfriend Hinata is amazing even if we don't get to see each other all that often. Due to the distance between us. I don't wanna mess anything up.

I was 4 when my dad left... Izu had just been diagnosed as Quirkless and well.... I got a Villains quirk. Taking control of peoples tech isn't ok... not in my dads eyes anyway...

I've always felt alone in the universe. I guess before the quirk diagnosis happened I had friends but once my quirk came out people left me. Just left. A a monster. With a villains quirk and well a personality of being quiet... what's not to hate.

I remember the first time I dragged a knife across my wrists. I was 12. And I didn't know how to feel anymore. I felt so lost so alone... and since that day I've slit my wrists... every single week. I'm ashamed to say that I haven't told anyone. And haven't tried to improve. I'm not sure why. It just feels good to know there's something I can feel even if my emotions are messed up....

My eyes have gone dark. But strangely I feel ok. We're all about to go our separate and we'll I'll never have to see these awful people again. But I'm scared for Izu. He wants so bad to get into UA and I don't think he can. Don't get me wrong I belive in my brother but... I just don't want him getting hurt.

That was back when everything was simple. Back when I didn't feel like a burden to everyone back when I didn't feel a alone. Back when I wasn't just a freak. Back when I felt like me......