Wooyoungs eyes were wide and his mind went crazy about what happened. He just stood there looking at san in shock. But what made him come to reality was that, san seemed to regret it.
Sans face wasnt like usual. He wasnt surely embarrased. But there was a sense of regret in his look.
As if it was a mistake and an action out of haste.
"𝘌𝘹𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘴𝘢𝘯."
Wooyoungs heart was about to break anytime sooner. He hoped that san wouldnt take it as a mistake. But his mind was sure that san regrets his decision.
He looked at san desperately waiting for an answer to come from him.
San sighed in frustration.
But he didnt say anything.
He just mumbled a quick 'sorry' and went out leaving wooyoung feeling quite unsure about the situation.
'Sorry'
He felt as if something was taken away from him. Sorry shouldnt be used as a token to escape reality but for earning honest forgiveness. So he felt really hurt here.
His eyes began to collect water as soon as san left him there.
The weight of the emotions seemed to overwhelm him. His head ache worsened at this point and he seemed to be have fallen into a head space having the fear of loosing the bond between him and san.
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𝐒𝐀𝐍
I blamed myself for acting out of impulse and for my recklessness for letting my desires and feelings get over me.
I couldnt stop thinking about wooyoungs feelings right now.
The way i couldnt even imagine being in his place pulled the guilt out of me so badly that i started getting angry at myself.
I pulled the car over on the bridge side to see the lake view. My life has always been like this. Nature was the cure for me.
But it really didnt help right now.
It worsened my mood since my thoughts were only deepened by the silence of the nature.
I am the one who is the cause of pain for him everytime and i couldnt withstand telling this to myself.
He always helps me get cured, worry over me and cares for me like how no one ever bothered to. Yet, i am the cause of him hurting.
With anger and frustration, i threw my helmet roughly down the rocks and broke it down trying to stop my mind going crazy.
My phone rang and i silenced it from my pocket.
Someone called me again but i didnt really wanna talk to someone right now. So i silenced it again.
When they called me again, i took it from my pocket wanting to switch it off. But i didnt because it was wooyoung.
"𝘏𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘰?"
I said. I was met with silence until a loud bang was heard. I got worried soon and called him again. But there was no response.
"𝘞𝘰𝘰𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘨?" I called him once more.
The sound of crackle can be heard and soon heavy breathing was followed.
"𝘞𝘰𝘰𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘨 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘮𝘦?" i asked and soon he replied.
"𝘚𝘢𝘯..." it was barely above a whisper with a broken voice almost sounding like he was out of breath.
He seemed to be crying so hard which made me act instantly; start my bike.
"𝘏𝘢𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦. 𝘋𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘤𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭!" i said and quickly drove of to where he was constantly speaking to him on the way there.
When i rang the door bell,
He opened.
But not like usual.
He was kneeling down scrouching and hugging his knees. Blood flowed down from his thighs and his face was covered in sweat and tears.
