Italics are dreams.
After a fun night with the team, and hearing all the gossip from Garcia, everyone heads home. You and JJ clean up, the team made more of a mess than you thought. You just admire your perfect fiancé, smiling and giggling when you meet each other's eyes.
"Come on, we'll finish this tomorrow." She smiles and grabs your hand leading you up the stairs and into your bedroom. You both get changed and jump into bed. You lay down, she places her head on your chest and puts her arm in front of you. Showing off the ring. "I can't believe I'm engaged to Jennifer Jareau." You say with a big smile as JJ turns to look at you.
"I can't believe I'm engaged to Y/N Y/L/N." She says keeping eye contact with you as she gets up. She grabs something from the dresser and runs into the bathroom. Coming out after about 10 minutes, in a beautiful black laced lingerie set. Giggling as she runs over to you. A perfect night to celebrate your engagement.
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You both fell asleep, her head laying on your chest and her fingers interlaced with yours.
He throws a towel at you, pointing to your mother's body with the gun in his hand. "I won't ask again, clean it up!" He's shaking, rubbing his head. Trying to figure out what to do.
You use the towel to stop the blood from running onto the carpet, it's all over your hands. As you finish cleaning up the blood, you look down at your hands, frantically trying to get it off.
"Let's go, we need to go." He pulls you up by your hair and drags you to the front door. Hitting you with the gun hard enough for you to pass out.
"HEY! Wake up. Get out." He ushers you out of the car, pulling you into his arms. There's smoke climbing from the engine, you've hit something. After your vision clears you see them all, pointing their guns towards you. Shouting at your father to lower the gun.
You look up, up to his chin. He's holding it next to his head. And as another police man yells out to drop it, a loud bang rings through your ears.
Waking up grabbing your chest, your breathing is frantic. Unable to catch your breath. "Y/N?" You hear JJ softly whisper beside you, she's still waking up but as she sees you in the light, she shoots up.
"Y/N, hey, what's going on?" She asks while you claw at your neck to catch your breath. You feel trapped, getting up and walking to the bathroom. Getting into the shower and turning on the water, "Y/N!" JJ screams from the bedroom.
You are sitting in the shower, under cold water. You finally catch your breath, you pull your knees to your chest and rock backwards and forwards. JJ comes into the bathroom and sees you on the shower floor. Jumping in with you, pulling you into her arms.
"Y/N, please, look at me." You are both under the shower, sitting under the fall of cold water. Your eyes travel up JJ's body and reach her eye line. "J." You look at her, trying to escape your hell. Bursting into tears in her arms. She puts her hand behind your head and brings it into her chest. You hear her heartbeat, it's fast paced. Skipping beats every now and then.
"Y/N. Breathe." She strokes your hair, and reaching for the tap to stop the shower water. You are both there drenched, looking into each other's eyes. "J. He was right there." You say with tears in your eyes. JJ has never seen you this scared. "It's a few more hours, then we can settle it all." Your medication repeats tomorrow, only a few more hours until the devils and pain in your brain quieten down.
"Come on, let's get changed." JJ stands up and lifts you out of the shower. She stands you in the bathroom, wrapping you in towels while she grabs a change of clothes. Undressing your soggy clothes, she dries you and then puts on a new set of clothes on you. Taking you to the bed and sitting you down while she changes.
He's stuck in your mind, memories racing through your brain. Your dazed and can't focus on JJ in front of you getting changed. She pulls her top over her head, quickly drying her hair before coming over to you. "Hey, I'm right here." She says while you stand up and lay back down on your side of the bed. In silence.
She turns the TV on and let's you put your head on her chest. She strokes your hair while you listen to her heartbeat. You place a hand on her stomach, and feel as your head moves with her breath. "I'm sorry." are all the words you have the strength to mutter. "Y/N, it isn't your fault. And I said, I'm with you through it all." She whispers into your ear.
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You both lay there until your alarm goes off for work. "Stay here, I'm going to call Hotch." Still silent, you just watch her leave to call Hotch. "Hey Hotch, we're going to need the day off. It's Y/N." He agrees and JJ hangs up the phone. Coming back over to you, helping you up and out of the bed.
"Where's your prescription?" She asks, without saying anything, you leave the bedroom and head downstairs. She follows you.
Taking your script out of your bag, giving it to JJ and then grabbing your keys. JJ looks worried but follows you to the car. She places her hand on your back and says, "Let me drive." You nod and give her the keys. Getting into the passenger seat, keeping your eyes on JJ.
You reach the pharmacy and JJ comes around the car to open the door for you. "I'll only be a second." You say to her as she waits for you by the car, heading into the pharmacy you refill your prescription.
"Thank you." You say to the pharmacist as you leave and see JJ waiting for you at the car. "Let's get back home. Spend the day together."
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JJ's Secret Lover
FanfictionJJ is dating Will and you have been secretly in love with her since you joined the team! But with conflicting history and love lives, will they get together?
