Once this is all over, will you remember me?
After finding out you'll soon have to go back to your timeline, the aching pain in my heart had not stopped, not even for second.
Once you're gone, will you think about the time we shared together? Will you remember me the way I will?
Even if time sets us apart, there's no way I'm letting you go.
"Are you alright?"
Natan looked at me, his expression had not changed since the first time we've met. His indifference always had me perplexed, and chuckling. It was difficult to be serious around him, I liked it.
"Yeah, I'm alright."
"Really? I thought I lost you back there, you just stood there looking at me."
I couldn't help but let out a loud chuckle, I was fine really. It's just the thought of him leaving has left me feeling lost and empty.
"You're staring again."
I snapped out of it almost immediately.
"My apologies."
He bit his lip and looked away, I feel like I could stare at him forever.
"So where's your brother?" He asked.
I thought about it for a moment and realized I had no idea where he was, he just told me he was leavng to go off somewhere yet he never exactly told me where.
"Come to think of it, I have absolutely no idea."
I could feel his eyes boring behind me. Wherever my brother has slipped off to is none of my business, he's 18 now. Since the battle of for the Heart of Anima, I've followed Natan everywhere, to the boiling dessert of Agelta drylands, and the futiristic city of Euriditio. He never asked why I chose to accompany him, or reasoned with me to not to, so I never left.
His lack of interest in me was gut wrenching but at the same time, attractive.
"Once we're back in Castle Aberleen, I shall bid my goodbye's"
As soon as Natan said that, I paused.
"Where are you going?" I turned to him, he stood just right behind me.
"To the Capital, then back to Euriditio and you know.."
We stood there in silence, practically staring at eachother.
"Why?" He asked his eyes still glued to mine.
Why? I don't know. I've been asking myself the same thing since I accompanied you to god knows where.
"You seriously don't know? Why I followed you through the desserts, why I followed you to an unfamiliar city, why I helped you solve mysteries you couldn't unfathom."
"I'm sorry? Am I supposed to know something?"
I scoffed, I saw this coming but still gave it a shot. Yet, his indifference and body language says a lot.
"Forget it, it's not important, to you at least."
I walked off, leaving him in the middle of nowhere. I later arrived in Castle Aberleen, the bright night sky illuminated in the city making it easier to see. The manor was empty, no one was there to greet me or welcome me back, none of the servants were there, nor were my family.
I then entered my room, it was just as I left it. The lingering smell of my perfume and the multiple stacks of paper in my desk near the window, though my room was always just me alone. It felt strangely empty, I've never had anyone in my room, but it felt like I had someone here for years, a strange feeling of longing and pain circled my heart.
I decided to bury myself into work for days, hoping this lingering feeling would magically disappear. But it did not, the servants were back and simply told me that everyone moved out.
It was just me, with my two younger brother's away andthe rest of my family turning their backs on me, I was alone. I've felt loneliness before, but this one was different.
It wasn't because my family abandoned me, they've abandoned me a long time ago, it was him. it's been weeks but of course, it's still him.
I gently placed the pieces of paper in my desk and ran my hands through my hair, winter was approaching and the burning pain in my chest wasn't getting any better. A loud knock disturbed me and I felt a surge of goosebumps run all over my body.
"Come in."
The door opened and it was my butler.
"A letter for you arrived, my lord." He handed me an envelope.
"Thank you, you may go."
As soon as I heard the door shut, I opened the letter.
To: Aamon Paxley.
To my dearest, Aamon.
'Dearest'? I don't like where this is going.
I just want to say thank you for everything. and that I loved ever moment we spent together, especially the time when people at Euriditio thought you were a beggar and that one moment when you were sinking in quicksand. I wrote you this letter to tell you how much I appreciate you for accompanying me all throughout the Land of Dawn, to unknown cities, to the burning sands, and to the mysteries this realm holds.
By the time you receive this letter, I will no longer be in the same time as you. I'm sorry I couldn't
bid you a proper farewell or fix our relationship due to our recent argument. I wanted to but I was afraid that once I see you again, I wouldn't be able to leave.
I'm also sorry that I couldn't tell you my true feelings before I left.
I couldn't say this to your face because it felt wrong, you're a highly respectable man, and I'm merely a time traveler who doesn't belong in this time, and also because I'm a man. The truth is
I love you, I have since the first time I saw you.
I'm sorry we couldn't spend more time with eachother, but hopefully we'll see
eachother in the future.
Love, Natan
And there was it, he was gone. Completely out of my reach. My feelings for him weren't one-sided, our feelings were reciprocated without us even knowing.I felt a myself chuckle, I rested my chin on my hand as I felt my tears streamed down my face. I stood up from my desk, turned to look out my window. The moon that I always found beautifully bright has lost its light.
I just wish, we had more time.
PS: This is only a oneshot thingy.
