Always

For Though She Said She'd Wait, But Her Eyes Told A Different Tale

At first rays of dawn crept through her window, Freen's eyes fluttered open. Her heart was pounding in her chest, the weight of the impending meeting settling heavily on her shoulders. In just few hours, she would come face to face with the university's president, the man who held the key to her freedom.

As she checked the clock on her phone, she sighed as the time was passing by like a turtle in the shore. It was still too early for her to get ready, but her body won't surrender to the rest that she needed. She had been waking up every hour since her soft cheek kissed the pillow. Her mind was full of thoughts and ideas about the responsibilities that she had to deal with, but her heart was racing for the pale faces that her saw the night before.

The sudden disappearance of her friends, made her wonder what was happening behind her back. Were they discussing about their new responsibilities that they will handle sometime in the future? Or knowing that the launch of her new company might take awhile, and the matter of the cost of living, might affect their lives until then? But all of these questions, doesn't add the weight of the eyes that she glanced at.

Nam who was posing as a model, suddenly turned into someone of something that consumed by fume and rage. Nita's expressions were so intense, that she was on a verge of tears. Tee's eyes were so wide, as if she just seen a ghost. And Kade, the oscar winner, whose laugh never seemed to fade, last night she looked like as cold as an iceberg. Everyone was acting weirdly, everyone seemed to hide a pain that was forced into a smile on their lips. But eyes never lies, no matter how hard they try, there is always something about them that speaks unconditionally.

It seems to her that Heng doesn't bear any relation to the matter that they shared together. He kept talking nonstop, but they all forced each other into his conversations. She wanted to ask them, she wanted to know what was bothering them. She's afraid that it might be her fault again, she's scared that she might pushed them to their limits, she's worried that she might lose them.

-Dinner went so dull that they were all just trying to escape. The moment they placed their cutlery on the table, silence came out of the blue. Nam promptly stood up and went straight to the kitchen, while holding her empty dish. Kade's face was white as snow, with expressions that were unfamiliar to be seen at all. Regardless of such behavior, she politely stood up and carried her dish towards the kitchen. The rest however, were looking sadly at the curious and uneasy soul, who was trying to get any hint of what was going on. The only sentence that came out from Nita's mouth was. "It's gonna be alright Freen" she smiled, as so did Tee. "Yeah buddy..don't worry about it!"

The restless soul groaned and shook her head, as she sat up on the bed. She sat still while her eyes fixated on the portrait that she hanged recently. It was of course her family's portrait, in which she sees their smile every morning, so that it won't fade away from her mind. She kept looking for a while, until she felt that's it's time to get ready for her meeting. Grabbing her phone and opening the curtains, the soft rays that have been in battle with the clouds, touched her face. A small smile formed on her lips, as she slowly opened the balcony and stepped outside for a brief moment.

-Her mind and body, suddenly formed a habit of feeling that standing on the balcony first thing in every morning, always seemed to make her feel better and calm. She kept glancing up at the sky, where the clouds were still fighting over the sun rays. The cold yet freshly air that had passed through the trees underneath, feathered over her soft skin. With a deep breath she closed her eyes as her hands tightened on the handrail. "Mom..dad...Song.. Anne...please look after me..wherever you are" she murmured, as she opened her eyes, looking straight at her future company. "I'm on track dad!...I just need to convince the president...then I'm free to focus on getting my revenge!..and well...my future of course"