Hard ToTrust

Intro

Love and I never really worked out. Ever since the day I was born, all the love was simply just a bunch of hate. There's only two people who truly love me as far as my family is concerned, and that's Cassandra, my sister and Lucky, my aunt. We call her Lucky because my mom and her other three sisters, Angie, Brooke and LaShaun thought she was the prettiest and claim that being prettier means she can easily get what she wants. They always complained about it, too. Although, they all looked the same to me. Anyway, my aunt Lucky or her real name, Avis, lives in Chicago while I'm in Atlanta. Meaning, I can't really talk to her in person as much as I'd like to when needed and Cassandra, well she's a workaholic so I can never get in a word with her. Although the only thing she always finds the time to say whenever we do talk is, "Oh, Leila, get a man. They make life and hard work easier." I'm 24 and all my older family members are getting more play than I am. My cousin, Jenn is 39 and she's getting all the love in LA from her husband and her coworkers at the law firm. Even though it's ridiculous and scandalous to be that greedy or lustful, I'm jealous. Not that I'm an attention grabber or anything, I just wish there was someone to love me like my first and last true love, Julian. When he was shot a few years ago, I was extremely devastated and hurt. I didn't know what to do. I almost went into horrific depression. Any who, as backwards as this is, I never properly introduced myself. My name's Leila Renée Cannon. I'm 24 and I have a 27 year old sister, Cassandra Rose Cannon. I'm an employee at Encore at Southlake Mall on the weekends and through the week, I'm a Librarian at West Fulton High. Either way, my life's boring as shit. I work, come home, eat, read and sleep. As far as my personal life like my family and my love life is concerned, I've had it rough. When I was 2, my mama, Kendra, gave me to my auntie who took care of me until I was 18. My sister lived with us too. My mama and grandma don't really care for me and the feeling is quite mutual. My mama just mad because when she had me, she was way too young and my daddy didn't want to be with her because of it. The way I see it, had her legs stayed closed, she wouldn't have had a problem. But, i don't care about her or my grandma. My Aunt Brooke doesn't live here so we barely talk. Aunt Angie and mama had a pow wow so she cut off all communication with the family and Auntie LaShaun, well she's in rehab trying to control her addiction and get hooked off of it. She has two children, my cousins Amber and Drey. From time to time, I keep them with Cassandra's help when she takes them and gets them out of my hair. I have no love life as you all know sooo yea, that's pretty much it. Oh, and I have two friends, Malaysia (Lay), and Trinity (Trin). They work with me at Encore . They're like my best friends. Anyway, at the moment, it's time for my boring day to start. It's Saturday so I should be making my way to Encore....