𝐉𝐉 𝐌𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐤 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐘𝐧 𝐑𝐮𝐭𝐥𝐞𝐝𝐠𝐞

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Yns pov

I feel asleep on the ground and I woke up from a knock on the door. "Come in!" I yell. Pope comes in. "Hey, jjs here. But we need to talk about you know... yesterday." Pope said. "Oh, God yes. That was so weird and unexpected and I wish we could work out but deep down I really still love JJ." I said sighing. "Oh, I'm so glad you were thinking the same thing. That kiss we had wa-" pope gets cut off. "You kissed Yn?" JJ said lightly. I could tell how much that really hurt him. I really loved him. I just don't think we can be together yet. "JJ, it wasn't like that." Pope said. "I kissed him." I boldly said. JJ sighed. "Of course you did. Did you do it for revenge? Cause if you did, it hurt me. Is that what you want? Me to hurt?" JJ scoffed. "No jj, I don't want you to hurt. It wasn't for revenge either! It was because I honestly thought it was the right thing to do at the time and now I realized that mine and pope's relationship can't ever be more than friends." JJ laughed. "Sure... did you fuck him? You know ever since you came everybody has been miserable? No one wants you. No one wants you here. No one, yn. Nobody loves you. Now, I actually know why your mom calls you a whore and a slut. She was right. Maybe I should just go with your mom too. Maybe I'll kiss another girl? Maybe. Fuck you, yn. You changed so much." JJ yelled as pope got out the room because he was uncomfortable. "I changed so much? I fucking changed? Look at you! You are a new whole boy. You used to be a man, now you are a little boy who can't keep someone and fights with someone who loves him so bad and I changed? I couldn't give a fuck less about you, but I choose to! Do you want me to not care? Good, because you reached lower than low so here's the new me. I never changed. This has been me. I can stoop lower than low too. This yn never wants to have your last name because you're a fucking loser like your dad. Don't fucking try me. I don't love you anymore." I yelled getting out of control and I was about to hit him but then It hit me. The abused is always most likely to be the next abuser. I stopped myself before I hit him and backed away. I started walking backwards in fear. What if I turn into an abuser someday? I slid to the floor. JJ was still crying. "You were about to hit me?" He asked. "N-no, I mean technically... yes but I stopped myself. I know it's not a good excuse but it's all I have. I couldn't control myself. "Fuck you." He said slapping me. I guess the abused does become the abuser. "I didn't hit you, but you hit me?" I said shaking.

Jjs pov

"I didn't hit you, but you hit me?" Yn said shaking in fear. I slapped her across the face again. She hit my hand lightly. "Is that all you got?" I yelled kicking her side. "JJ! Stop!" She said yelling. I kept on kicking her but every kick got softer when I realized that she wasn't my punching bag. I kicked her once more and she winces in pain. "I hate you." She yelled crying and sniffling. Just then, I just realized I loved her. But I love you?" I ask. "You don't love me. If someone loves someone, they don't treat them like this." Yn sniffled. "Like what?" I ask. "The kicking, the words, the fights, cheating, everything. You treat me like shit, like I'm worthless. I hate how you treat me!" Yn said still bawling her eyes out. I felt guilty. I don't know what I was thinking. I was jealous. Jealousy takes over my mind and leaves someone feeling empty and filled with pain. "How do you manage to talk like that and still leave a smile on your face?" Yn mumbled. My smile dropped. I didn't even notice I was smiling . "Talk like what?" "That nobody cares and loves me? That I ruined your life. That I'm a slut and a whore. That you should've moved in with my mom." Yns voice cracked. I could tell how much she was hurt. "I'm sorr-" she cuts me off. "No you aren't." "I'm actually sorry." I said. "Just get out." Yn mumbled. I put my hand on her and she backed away. "Don't touch me." She said. I walk out her room as she demanded. It hurt seeing her hurt but if leaving didn't hurt her more than she already way, i would leave. I loved her truly but i just handle things wrong or cruelly. I can't help it.