Unexpected Blossom

Fallen Into The Trap

Things that I desires...

Things that I wanted to be mine...

And, things that I needed. All was been giving to me by him.

Gong Jun he give me a picture of a perfect landscape. A perfect picture of love. A perfect Melody. Hence, if that was really it? Why does I can't take it? Does it truly belong to me?.

Holding a picture of a perfect memories of love concealed in an old blue box with black edges. There are placed a perfect picture of love between Gong Jun and the girl. safety sealed locked into a sealed cabinet.

Zhehan thoughts rain upon him casting a river like tears to flow into his eyes as he knew. The girl that currently him, was not anything he concluded but someone he refused to conclude.

Gong Jun's girlfriend, His lover...

Then,... If all was back to normal and he's out of Xiaomi, then all of those will vanished as well. Including Gong Jun's love... He cannot have it, aren't he?...

"Thank you, for loving me, for always being by my side, for taking care of me. I hope you will love me until the end,"

"Those words....Was it a lie?" He asked. "If not, whom does it belongs to?" He added.

The love he confessed, the love he speaks, who are the true owner's of it?.
When he kissed me who's the one he kisses, Thinking of it was a mess, it is nothing but a mess.

"They're lover's, it means Gong Jun already love Xiaomi before I came, Then I... I am..." Zhehan welled in tears as he sats on the floor, "I was wrong, From everything that I conclude was I wrong?

"I isn't the one he speaks aren't it? All was a mistake?!." Zhehan screamed through his thought. "Why didn't I realize? It is obvious from the start?! Why the girl wake up in his bedroom, Why the girl lives in his house. It's obvious, it's completely obvious!" He exclaimed.

"But,...why didn't he speak when I confessed? Why he keep it a secret? Why does he lie?!.

All this surging questions evolves in his mind. All of their happy memories together are replaying on him. It A carved a smile on Zhehan's lips only to immediately replaced by the surge of eternal sadness and boundless pain. Zhehan's smile faded realizing the truth of his situation.

Then from the start for Gong Jun he was merely playing a role of Xiaomi. Xiaomi, Gong Jun's lover, The person Gong Jun cared, love. It wasn't him it's her's - it was for Xiaomi. The love Gong Jun gives wasn't for him but for Xiaomi.

The gleam in Zhehan's eyes vanished, replaced by immeasurable sadness. He stood up and left the place, leaving the emptiness. He stood and walk away fearing that staying further more will literally kill him.

All the flowers and roses, they were never meant for him. He just accepting them in Xiaomi's place. Including Gong Jun's feelings.

At the apartments rooftop Zhehan called Gong Jun to talk. He was still contemplating all that has happened. And was merely on edge of accepting it all.

Under the cold moonlight, He assumed that every secrets and lies will be unfolded. And so what he wants happened.

Zhehan cried silently, he cried within, though no tears cascaded down his face. The pain in his heart cut deep, but he couldn't let the tears flow.

"So,...your really this girl's lover?" Zhehan inquired holding back tears. Hence, despite the question Gong Jun hasn't responded. "Was I third party?" Zhehan had asked. "Was I being used or a user?" He added. "Gong Jun please tell me who am I?" Zhehan inquired nonstop. But still not getting anything from Gong Jun.

"I... thought you love me, Was I wrong?..."

Gong Jun tears welled up and fall vigorously shaking his head. " No, Hanhan, I love you. Truly," Gong Jun states.

He didn't know what happened and why does Zhehan knew it. But now, everything Zhehan concluded was wrong. He wants to correct him. Tell that he truly loves him, but how? How can he.

He just stood there mirroring the same expression Zhehan has. Crying in agony and suffering in pain.

The realization that the man he longed for had a girlfriend was hurtful but the thing that it might be the only reason why Gong Jun loves him was more hurtful than he could bear,

If he had simply been told "I'm sorry." He wouldn't be hurt like this, If Gong Jun simply get mad at him when he knows the truth he can accept it. But No?! How does the situation process this way? The weight of unrequited love and a love that just blossomed because he was Xiaomi was more hurtful than having unrequited love.

Gong Jun couldn't bear seeing Zhehan hurt anymore he extend his hands out to reach Zhehan's cheeks and wipe his tears but Zhehan unconsciously brush it. He didn't know why nor if it is an instinct or a sheer terror but he simply cannot endure the touch that wasn't for him.

He gazed into Gong Jun's eyes that are now filled with concern and pain caused by his unintended rejection.

Guilt consumed his mind he don't want to do it but Zhehan had endured enough, suffering through the torment of his unrequited love, but why do requiting it also delivers him to this more complicated and troubled paradise.

He couldn't bear it any longer. He longed to break free.

If Gong Jun would never see the real him, then let his suffering come to an end.