Dazed || BTS Namjoon Fanfiction

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Jin was yelling at him. It was loud, and fast, but worst of all, Jin was crying.

Namjoon gulped, going from unable to look at his crying hyung, to being unable to look away. It pained him to see Jin this upset, to have worried his eldest hyung so much. But it had been an accident, right?

Once is an accident, twice a coincidence, and three times a pattern, his mind helpfully reminded him. Well, something definitely was up then, if a fourth time of falling into that strange daze had led to him fainting.

"Do you have ANY idea, Kim Namjoon, what a heart attack you gave me, gave ALL OF US!?" Jin yelled through his sobbing. "You were passed out on the floor! Passed out, not even sleeping, because we couldn't wake you up for ages!"

It had taken them about ten minutes to wake him up. Yoongi had told him when he had woken up about half an hour ago. Jimin had explained that they had come home twenty minutes after Jimin failed to reach Namjoon in the video call.

Namjoon couldn't imagine being passed out for that long. Was he truly that exhausted?

"And then you were bleeding?! You hit your head! Against the freaking bed!" Jin yelled. "How- WHY didn't you lie down sooner, if you were dizzy?!"

He barely remembered passing out, but apparently he hadn't made it to the bed on his way from the desk. The evidence came from the splitting headache and the bump on the right side of his head.

"H-Hyung, I... I don't know what happened either... e-everything just became... blurry... I don't know... I went into a daze... and everything went black," he said, his voice shaking with emotion. He was scared. He didn't want to show it, but it came out through his shaky voice and the way he seemed tense and looked at the members with slightly wild eyes.

"It's okay, hyung, we'll figure this out. The doctor will tell us more," Taehyung said from where he had his arms wrapped around Namjoon from behind him on the bed. The younger hadn't left his side and refused to let go of him after he woke up.

"Where is that doctor?" Jungkook asked, sounding frustrated. "We called before we even arrived."

"It's okay..." Namjoon mumbled. "I'm fine now, right? There's no rush."

A sharp intake from Jin sounded. "No rush?! My god, Namjoon-"

"Jin-hyung, please, take it down a notch," Hoseok said, or rather pleaded. He had tears in his eyes as he watched Jin sob and yell at an exhausted and scared-looking Namjoon.

"We have to take care of him now, okay?" Jimin said, agreeing with Hoseok. "You have yelled at him long enough."

Jin took a few deep breaths and Yoongi had to walk him out of the room and into the hallway to calm down. Hoseok let out a sigh and sat down next to Namjoon and Taehyung, and Jimin and Jungkook stayed standing, Jungkook even pacing around the room.

"You haven't had this before, have you?" Jimin asked.

Namjoon shook his head. "Just the past few days... yesterday during the meeting was the third time... but I didn't pass out, it was just... just the daze. Blurry vision, fuzzy mind..."

"And nothing else is bothering you? No unusual levels of stress, or headaches, or anything else?" Jimin asked.

Namjoon shook his head, looking down, avoiding everyone's gazes. "We've been busy this past week... but haven't we always been? I've slept worse the first few months after our debut, and even worse after. Let alone pulling off concerts after sleepless nights."

"Which also isn't great..." Taehyung pointed out softly.

"True... but nothing unusual. So this past week shouldn't have... it shouldn't have caused this." Namjoon sighed. "I thought I was just tired, but then passing out on my day off? It doesn't make sense."

"It really doesn't," Hoseok agreed.

When the doctor arrived and came up to Namjoon's room, he explained the same thing once again. He had been exhausted the past few days, but nothing out of the ordinary happened. He had worked, he had eaten, he had slept.

The doctor agreed that it was strange that Namjoon passed out after he had been resting the entire day. He ran a few quick tests, but nothing stood out, except for a slightly fast heartbeat, but that was to be expected since Namjoon felt anxious.

As there was nothing else that seemed to be wrong, the doctor advised him to take it easy for a few days, and if the dizzy spells returned he advised to make an appointment at the hospital for a more thorough check-up.

Namjoon didn't take advice like that very well. He wasn't good at taking it easy for days on end – well, most of them weren't – and it frustrated him that he couldn't work or perform his tasks as the leader of the team.

He was excluded from meetings for at least three days and even though he wasn't forced, the six members had pressed him about staying home too.

Those three days passed pretty quickly, with nothing much happening. The members had come home early enough for them to have dinner with the seven of them and spend the evening together playing games or watching movies. It was pretty fun and almost felt like a little holiday (except for the afternoon and mornings, during which the others worked and Namjoon tried his utmost best to relax).

The fourth day after Namjoon passed out, he only had a small schedule. A meeting with a main producer for their next album, and a recording of a rap piece with Yoongi and Hoseok. The meeting was uneventful, and the recording went smoothly, so it wasn't a stressful day in the slightest.

"It was good to have you back today," Hoseok said with a grin at the end of their recording session. They had made very few mistakes and even after his small holiday, Namjoon had gotten into the song pretty easily.

"It was fun. I think this song will do well," Namjoon replied with a grin.

"Oh, I know it will," Yoongi said. "ARMY is going to love this."

"Well, if Yoongi-hyung says it, it must be true," Hoseok said, laughing.

They walked in comfortable silence through the building, heading to Namjoon's studio to relax and have dinner. The maknaes and Jin were still busy with their recording sessions, so it would be just the three of them eating together. Taehyung had complained about it on and on the day before, whining about how he was going to miss having dinner together for days in a row.

Namjoon had to say that it really was much better to eat together than to eat alone in his studio. Maybe he should do that a little more often.

When the three rappers arrived at the studio, Namjoon halted in front of the door with a frown.

"No one has ordered food yet, right?" he asked, staring at the take-out bag on the doormat. It was from the restaurant he usually ordered at, but he was sure he hadn't made any orders today.

Hoseok and Yoongi both shook their heads.

Namjoon sighed. It had happened before that people ordered food for them without them asking, but due to safety reasons, they never took the food if they didn't know who ordered it for them. It was a waste, really, but it was just the safest thing to do.

Namjoon picked up the bag from the floor and looked at the receipt that was stapled to it. He looked for any notes at the bottom, his stomach turning a little when he saw the tiny words written there.

'For Namjoon. I've been missing you, eat well love <3'

"Great. Gotta throw this out." He opened the door to his studio and immediately threw the bag into the trashcan next to his desk.

"It's not from the staff?" Hoseok asked.

Namjoon shook his head, looking back at his friend with a grimace. "Staff don't usually put a note, let alone call me love."

Hoseok visibly cringed.

"This better not be a regular thing, Namjoon-ah," Yoongi said.

Namjoon shook his head. "It isn't. Happens to all of us every once in a while, right?"

"If this happens more often, you know who to contact, right?" Yoongi asked.

Namjoon laughed it off. "Yeah, yeah I know. Don't worry. This doesn't bother me."

Yoongi's face clearly showed that it did bother him.