Denying Love

Deny It All You Want

You have known Yoongi for as long as your brother Ji has. He is your twin, after all. Yoongi and Ji have been best friends since meeting in high school, and their bond of friendship only grew stronger as time passed.

Your feelings for Yoongi grew as well, but into something more than just your brother's friend. Ji knows you are crushing hard on Yoongi, and he says Yoongi is crushing on you, too, but you don't believe him. 

After graduating, the atmosphere between you and Yoongi seemed to change, as if there was a charge in the air, yet neither acted on it, too afraid of being wrong.

Yoongi spent more time with you than usual, but your brother also seemed to have more errands to run, leaving you two alone. Sometimes, you would catch him grinning as he went. Your brother would not return for an hour or more, but you and Yoongi never noticed.

Today, you're all together at the pool. Jin, Hobi, Joon, and the cuties Jimin, Tae, and Kooki are playing the game 'chicken fight.'  They have paired up in teams of two, with one sitting on his teammate's shoulders as they splash around, trying to knock down the other team.

You sit with your brother and Yoongi, watching them battle it out. You all laugh when the youngest ones defeat their hyungs.

 Hearing his laugh, you look at Yoongi, sitting next to you in swim trunks and a t-shirt, and you release a soft sigh of contentment.  Then you recall your brother's teasing comment this morning about Yoongi having a crush on you. You roll your eyes, thinking, 'Yeah, right, he has a crush on me?'

Like Yoongi, you would rather not be in the water. The only difference is he knows how to swim, and you don't. You sometimes sit on the edge of the deep end with your legs in the water or play in the three to four-foot end of the pool. But more often than not, you sat in a poolside chair, watching the others.

 You watch Yoongi smiling at the antics of his bandmates in the pool and wish you did know how to swim. A thought fleets across your love-struck mind, 'Would he teach me how to swim if I asked him?' 

You quickly dismiss that thought. You knew your brother would want to do it. Besides, he understood your fear of water since you almost drowned when you were three years old after falling in the backyard pool. 'But could I do it if it was Yoongi teaching me?'

 You are broken out of your thoughts when your brother, grinning mischievously, says, "Earth to Minah, would you like another drink?"

You smile, say, "Thanks, Ji." and hand him your empty cup.

Then he turns to Yoongi and asks, "Do you want another too? I'm about to go and get one myself so I can pick it up." 

Yoongi says, "Thanks. That would be great." 

Your brother heads off on an errand to get drinks from the bar. You first watch him with a slight frown, then turn your attention to Yoongi.

You and Yoongi are talking about new rap lyrics when you notice the others are out of the pool, heading in your direction and looking at you.

You try to ignore them as they get closer and continue talking to Yoongi. You and he are both watching them from the corner of your eyes.

The circle around you is closing in, and you look at them, laughing, "What are you guys doing?" They don't say anything but have mischievous smiles on their faces.

Yoongi is frowning, wondering what they're up to. Suddenly, they swoop in and grab you, carrying you as they hurry towards the pool's deep end.

Yoongi mumbles, grinning, "It's not me this time they grab to throw in the pool." The words 'to throw in' hit him.